Polling this group because I cannot trust psychiatrists.
I recently went in for a TMS evaluation, and the doctor there ended up telling me the "team" had decided I wouldn't be a good candidate. Right now the main way my mental fucked-up-ness presents itself is through persistent self-hate thoughts, like (spoiler-blocked for trigger reasons) . The doctor there said that TMS worked for "energy and motivation", but not for "self loathing".
The thing is, though, I also behaved during the TMS evaluation in ways a psychiatrist could describe as "hostile" or "combative": basically, I felt they weren't taking my trauma from forced hospitalization/drugging seriously and suspected that they were pro forced hospitalization/drugging, so I wasn't making the process friendly and easy for them. So now I'm like, did they reject me because TMS really doesn't work for persistent self-directed hate and rage? Or did they just reject me because they thought I was a pain in the ass?
Can anyone who's done TMS advise on this? Did it help with stopping self-hate thoughts?
If TMS didn't help with the self hating thoughts, what did? (Besides talk therapy which I already know has been completely fucking useless for me )
It's just the standard brush-off for when the person you're talking to doesn't want to deal with your trauma but also wants to seem kind and knowledgeable.
Even when you have a good therapist it's insulting. Like, really, "go to therapy"? Wow you're such a genius for coming up with that, do you also tell fat people to just eat less and exercise like it's the most brilliant idea they've never heard 857285828572948 times?
I recently got a related brush off from an actual mental health professional. Basically I did a TMS eval and the doctor told me TMS wouldn't work on me and instead I should see a regular psychiatrist for "medication management". After already hearing from me about the like 10 psychiatric drugs I already took that didn't work. I felt like punching her through the phone.
Anyone else tired of being told you need to go to therapy?
CPTSD