Right now I'm at a level where I'm constantly masking my pain to make money at my job, then masking some more around people at social events because I don't have a local support system and so I have to put myself out there to make friends but I'm afraid of alienating them by "trauma dumping", and when I get home I have the inner critic screaming at me from morning til night that I'm a worthless piece of shit for not working on meaningful career stuff