I've been diagnosed with amxiety/depression/adhd/cptsd.

Been going through some stressful stuff for awhile. However, since September I've been struggling with this constant sense of impending doom. My brain keeps latching onto legitimate things to be worried about, but the feeling itself seems to come on without a thought.

I've been taking propranolol and its been helping. It seems worst when I'm sitting at home on my days off relaxing - my mind can't stop thinking about how I have stuff to do and everything is falling apart because I'm wasting time.

Its driving me crazy and making me worry I'm causing damage to my body. But then I also worry there's something wrong with my body that I haven't found yet. I have a nerve injury in my upper back I'm investigating right now. I then also worry I'm being a hypochondriac.

Is there anything else I can do to just get this to stop? I'm having to take more propranolol right now because nothing is tamping this down. I just want to be able to live. .

Long story short, our leasing company is offering us the same price to renew either month to month or for 12 months. We've lived here for 7 years.

If we renew month to month, what do we lose out on? Are they able to raise the rent every month? Can they choose not to renew on a monthly basis?

We're good tenants and have never been late on rent so I doubt they'd want us out but I want to make sure we're protected.

For the past few months I've been dealing with pain just under my shoulder blade on my left side (I'm left handed.) When it gets bad it feels like there's something round and hard in that part of my back, but there's nothing actually there when I or someone actually feels around. It also can hurt to breath in when it gets to that point.

Sometimes pressing on it and massaging it helps for a moment, but then it comes right back worse.

At some point the pain started actually affecting my arm. I felt symptoms of nerve damage - numbness, reduced sensation, reduced grip strength, and my hand would sometimes shake or release randomly. That's when I went to the doctor.

Without going into too much detail, my PCP determined this was a work related injury and I've been dealing with workers comp ever since. The workers comp doctor put me on a weight limit, ordered an xray, and signed me up for PT. I asked about getting an MRI and she said the insurance likely wouldn't approve it until I'd gone through PT. They did a thoracic xray and found nothing unusual.

I worked through PT. Since starting on the workers comp I started paying close attention to what triggered the injury, and I told both the comp doctor and PT trainers that it seemed to start whenever I was doing work while standing and looking down for long periods of time (which is something I do a lot of in my job.) PT did a lot of work with my neck and suggested there may be issues there. They also commented my upper back and neck muscles were very tight. I've had lifelong anxiety so that could be why. They worked with me a lot on my posture in particular since I tend to slouch and overuse my back when lifting.

PT helped a bit and I was able to increase my weight limit, but then once I tried doing a 60 lb limit I started having issues again. Meanwhile, I finally got approved for an MRI. The workers comp doctor had been saying I wasn't improving at the expected rate and she lowered me back to 40 lbs recently.

I was worried about it being a slipped disc but the professionals I talk to about it keep saying I'm too young and would be showing more severe symptoms. I'm not sure about it being a muscle spasm because they prescribed me relaxants and those did absolutely nothing. Some small paranoid part of me is worried about it being a tumor but I'm not going to seriously entertain that idea right now.

For context, I'm a 30 year old AFAB person. I'm 6ft, 200 lbs and lost about 60 lbs in the last six months because of my physically active job/cutting down on food to budget. My job involves some amount of lifting, but I also have to do a lot of bending and twisting. I work with large animals and have been yanked around by my left arm on multiple occasions - never had any one incident where I was in noticeable pain from that though.

Before this job I mostly did desk work. I also do art on the side and have for years. However, I've never had any kind of medical issue like this until I started my current job. Doing my personal projects and small things around the house doesn't trigger it at all, it's always the motions I do at work, usually when I need to stand and look straight down for long periods (15-30 minutes at a time) while moving my arm.

I have my MRI soon and I'm honestly a little scared it's going to show nothing. I was so sure my xray would at least give some answers. I'm desperate to be better because I can barely do my job duties with my weight restriction.

For the past few months I've been dealing with pain just under my shoulder blade on my left side (I'm left handed.) When it gets bad it feels like there's something round and hard in that part of my back, but there's nothing actually there when I or someone actually feels around. It also can hurt to breath in when it gets to that point.

Sometimes pressing on it and massaging it helps for a moment, but then it comes right back worse.

At some point the pain started actually affecting my arm. I felt symptoms of nerve damage - numbness, reduced sensation, reduced grip strength, and my hand would sometimes shake or release randomly. That's when I went to the doctor.

Without going into too much detail, my PCP determined this was a work related injury and I've been dealing with workers comp ever since. The workers comp doctor put me on a weight limit, ordered an xray, and signed me up for PT. I asked about getting an MRI and she said the insurance likely wouldn't approve it until I'd gone through PT. They did a thoracic xray and found nothing unusual.

I worked through PT. Since starting on the workers comp I started paying close attention to what triggered the injury, and I told both the comp doctor and PT trainers that it seemed to start whenever I was doing work while standing and looking down for long periods of time (which is something I do a lot of in my job.) PT did a lot of work with my neck and suggested there may be issues there. They also commented my upper back and neck muscles were very tight. I've had lifelong anxiety so that could be why. They worked with me a lot on my posture in particular since I tend to slouch and overuse my back when lifting.

PT helped a bit and I was able to increase my weight limit, but then once I tried doing a 60 lb limit I started having issues again. Meanwhile, I finally got approved for an MRI. The workers comp doctor had been saying I wasn't improving at the expected rate and she lowered me back to 40 lbs recently.

I was worried about it being a slipped disc but the professionals I talk to about it keep saying I'm too young and would be showing more severe symptoms. I'm not sure about it being a muscle spasm because they prescribed me relaxants and those did absolutely nothing. Some small paranoid part of me is worried about it being a tumor but I'm not going to seriously entertain that idea right now.

For context, I'm a 30 year old AFAB person. I'm 6ft, 200 lbs and lost about 60 lbs in the last six months because of my physically active job/cutting down on food to budget. My job involves some amount of lifting, but I also have to do a lot of bending and twisting. I work with large animals and have been yanked around by my left arm on multiple occasions - never had any one incident where I was in noticeable pain from that though.

Before this job I mostly did desk work. I also do art on the side and have for years. However, I've never had any kind of medical issue like this until I started my current job. Doing my personal projects and small things around the house doesn't trigger it at all, it's always the motions I do at work, usually when I need to stand and look straight down for long periods (15-30 minutes at a time) while moving my arm.

I have my MRI soon and I'm honestly a little scared it's going to show nothing. I was so sure my xray would at least give some answers. I'm desperate to be better because I can barely do my job duties with my weight restriction.

I have PetsBest insurance for both of my cats. We get their second-to-best coverage option.

So last year, I took both my cats A and E in for their annual checkups. A gets very stressed at the vet. When they looked over their blood work, the vet noted that A had elevated insulin levels and offered to run a Fructoseamine test to check if he had diabetes. I agreed to it, test showed he did not and his elevated insulin levels were from vet stress.

I submitted both of their vet bills to PetsBest and was compensated about $150 for each of them.

This year, same thing with the annual checkup. This time, my vet offered to pre-emptively run the fructoseamine test on A just to make sure nothing had changed from last time. I agreed to it, test was run, once again A is confirmed to not have diabetes.

I submitted the bill again. E's visit went through and was compensated about $150 again with no issues. A's, however, was delayed for a few weeks.

They recently got back to me basically saying the visit was considered an accident/injury checkup and would go to my deductible instead. Additionally, they listed A on the report as having diabetes.

When I tried contacting them over live chat about this, they said that because the fructoseamine test was performed the visit was no longer qualified as a wellness visit. That the test clearly showed the pet came to the visit unwell. I explained he did not in fact come in unwell, the test was a checkup from last visit, and last visit the checkup was reimbursed just fine.

They also said that I had reached my limit on coverage for my wellness checks anyway, which didn't make sense because only E was reimbursed - last time they were both reimbursed.

They said they would resend it in to check it over again. However, I'm thinking I should try calling them instead. I'm not sure if I should involve my vet on this? I really don't like that they listed my cat as diabetic when the tests have proven he isn't. I also need the reimbursement, not having this sent to my deductible.

It just doesn't seem right that because my vet offered to check up on this one thing, the whole visit is ineligible for compensation. I don't want to start turning down tests like this just because of how my insurance might see it.

I posted this on legal advice and never got any response. [US - CA]

I'm in SoCal. I've lived at my apartment for over five years. Last year, I signed my lease as usual for a 12 month lease, with the rent increase. This year, I didn't get a renewal letter at the usual time. It took me some time going back and forth with the leasing office to get an answer from them.

Apparently, I've been a month to month renter since last year. Due to some system glitch, my new contract and rent were never put into the system. I've been paying the same rent I paid back in 2022 for a second year.

They told me that at first they had considered asking me for the "back rent," but because I apparently wasn't the only tenant affected by this glitch they came to a "compromise" and said they'd be raising my rent this year based on what my rate was supposed to be, rather than what I've been paying.

Is this all correct on their end, or should I look into this situation more closely? If I was just left month to month as they say in their system, that means they essentially rejected my lease on their end last year. If they put me month to month, doesn't that mean they broke their part of the contract where I signed for a 12 month lease?

I seriously feel like I'm in some bizzaro world right now, because I could have sworn our rent did increase last year, but looking through my statements it really has been the same since the year before. I guess with how everything else has gotten more expensive I assumed it had. I was going through a severe bout of depression that time so my memory may have been shot.

I haven't been able to afford any type of therapy for awhile now. I currently see a psych for my medication but now with my new terrible insurance even those visits are prohibitively expensive right now.

I will be making more money by next month, and would like to start seeking therapy again. However, I've always struggled to find a therapist that actually helps with my trauma.

I have cptsd from a physically and emotionally abusive childhood. I've come to really understand recently that a lot of my anxiety symptoms now are physical. My body will react outside of my control, and often will latch onto thoughts to justify my anxiety.

The thing is, so many therapists I've worked with have worked under cbt, with the idea of challenging your negative thoughts and realizing you have control over them. However, I've been frustrated with this strategy because I literally don't have control over my thoughts, feelings, and my body's reactions. I feel like I get blamed for something I have no ability to control. It doesn't matter how many logical fallacy worksheets I fill out or mental exercises I do, my nervous system reacts no matter what.

One thing that's honestly made a big difference in my life is taking propranolol regularly. Right now it's helping me actually succeed in my customer service job. But it's not helping with everything.

What should I look for exactly when trying to find a therapist who won't default to cbt?

I'm in SoCal. I've lived at my apartment for over five years. Last year, I signed my lease as usual for a 12 month lease, with the rent increase. This year, I didn't get a renewal letter at the usual time. It took me some time going back and forth with the leasing office to get an answer from them.

Apparently, I've been a month to month renter since last year. Due to some system glitch, my new contract and rent were never put into the system. I've been paying the same rent I paid back in 2022 for a second year.

They told me that at first they had considered asking me for the "back rent," but because I apparently wasn't the only tenant affected by this glitch they came to a "compromise" and said they'd be raising my rent this year based on what my rate was supposed to be, rather than what I've been paying.

Is this all correct on their end, or should I look into this situation more closely? If I was just left month to month as they say in their system, that means they essentially rejected my lease on their end last year. If they put me month to month, doesn't that mean they broke their part of the contract where I signed for a 12 month lease?

We've lived at my location for over five years, and every year its been the same process to renew, even through multiple buyouts at my location. The leasing company sends us our renewal pricing 30 days before our renewal date either in the mail or on our door, and we renew.

This year, we didn't get a renewal notice. My partner and I have been going into the office and calling them nearly every day to ask about it, and every single time they say "oh, we already sent them out, you didn't get one? We'll look into that." Then nothing. Sometimes they act like we're choosing to renew right then and there, and we keep having to tell them they haven't given us the pricing yet. The furthest we've gotten is an email with "lease renewal offer" that just leads to a web page that reads "offer pending." Its been pending for a week.

At this point we have just over two weeks before our usual renewal date. I'm considering talking to an attorney to go over my options because I'm not sure what else to do at this point. My partner and I were actually considering moving, or maybe going month to month to move in a few months, but all of that hinges on their new offer.

Is there something they're trying to pull here? I would think if they wanted to not renew they would have just told us. For context I'm in California.

UPDATE: Went in as soon as they opened today. Apparently their internet was out. Person there asked me if I really hadn't seen a renewal offer on my door or in the mail, because they'd already sent out the April offers. Told them I hadn't, and that I'd been told that before, and that every time we'd come in to ask about this we'd been told the office would look into it and then we'd never hear back.

They told me they'd be extending my decision time, and once the internet was back on they'd add my unit to their brand new resident portal.

I have today and tomorrow off and not much to do so I guess I'll keep poking at them and looking into my tenant rights options just in case. I probably shouldn't assume malice when incompetence would also explain it or whatever the saying is but no matter what this is still affecting me the same way. I have a number of other people I need to coordinate with depending on if or when we leave, this is the one bit of info we need to start planning.

I've been on various anti anxiety meds for years, but have been off all meds for the past few months. I'd tried Aplenzin and it didn't seem to do anything, if anything it made things worse.

I just have this constant pit in me that sometimes physically hurts. I can't stop obsessing over the worst thing happening in any given situation, or all the things I'm neglecting. Constantly paranoid I'm missing deadlines. My social anxiety is back in full swing.

Money is my biggest source of anxiety which makes this doubly hard to treat. I'm making a lot less than I was a few years ago and the economy is terrible. I've been eating way less to save money. I've been sleeping less.

I'm also an aspiring writer, but for a long time haven't been able go let go of anxiety around writing perfectly the first time, or that whatever I write is garbage and I don't have time to be a garbage writer when I need to make money NOW.

I just need...something that will shut off the switch in my brain that makes me obsess over these anxious thoughts. Something to shut the put in my stomach up and loosen my mind. I've been considering asking about psychedelics at this point.

I have adhd, and I've been off my meds for a few weeks due to supply issues. Are there any good meds out there that would help this type of anxiety without having bad cross effects with vyvanse?

I've been out of work for awhile, and I'm running out of funds. I've been diligent in my job search but for some reason keep hitting brick wall after brick wall.

I'm now at the point where I'm feeling paralyzed by anxiety. I can't relax and enjoy myself, because I feel like that's time I'm wasting not actively job hunting. But job hunting while I'm in this state feels like swimming through molasses, and I'm sure its causing me to make mistakes in applications and interviews.

It doesn't help that even before all this I struggled with social anxiety, and anxieties over work in general. And I have adhd, medicated but still.

Today I've been stuck going through waves of anxiety attacks for the past five hours. I tried taking a nap and I couldn't because it felt physically painful and I couldn't stop thinking about how I wasn't applying to jobs in that moment.

I can't reason myself out of this because this is honestly a very legit reason to be this anxious I think. But there's also nothing else I can actually do right now to fix the problem - its late on a Friday, no one's gonna be calling me back or looking at my apps until Monday. I did have one interview where it sounded like they were very much on board with hiring me, but I've had interviews like that before so I can't rest on that.

I just want this feeling to stop so I can at least do something, even if it's fall asleep.

I've been looking into trying therapy again, but I keep coming back to the same thought: how is a therapist supposed to help me with my anxiety if that anxiety is actually a proportional response to real stressors?

I've previously worked in SEO and content writing. Just over a year ago I was let go from my position as an SEO Manager very suddenly. Since them I have been struggling to find any kind of new work. I've been applying whenever I see job openings, I often get through the first and even second interview, then I either get completely ghosted or passed for someone else.

I've been doing a lot of self examination to see where I'm doing something wrong. Part of it is I think I'm not that great at interviewing honestly. I already have clinical anxiety and depression, and after I was let go I had a bit of a mental health breakdown and I've been still trying to recover from that. I think it took a real hit to my ability to present myself personably.

But I also feel like part of it is that I don't really like being in SEO specifically, and that probably comes off to people. Its a "career path" I sorta accidentally fell into, and I don't think I have the personality for it.

But I don't really know how to course correct from here, because my resume is all geared for SEO, and every single time I talk to a recruiter they're all hype to try and find an SEO position for me. I've tried pivoting more into just writing, and I do contract work right now that pays a bit, but not enough to fully support me.

What's extra frustrating is that I can't even seem to just get a job in, say, retail or fast food or similar, because my resume doesn't match up with those jobs either. So right now I feel like I'm stuck between not being able to get an entry level job due to too much specific experience, while not being able to get a job that matches my experience.

I've been thinking about talking to a job coach but every time I try looking up that kind of information I just keep seeing people say those types of things are scams. I would like to dive into learning some type of coding, but once again every possible avenue I look into to try to learn gets reviewed as a scam. Hell I've even been looking into going back to school to get my Masters, but I've never actually had to apply for student loans and financial aid on my own, and I have no idea where I can go to get help with that.

Basically, I feel paralyzed by indecision, which also isn't helpful. I keep starting things, but then I can't find any information on the next step. I'm 29, and I'm sure people think these are things I just should know by now, but I don't.