I haven't been able to afford any type of therapy for awhile now. I currently see a psych for my medication but now with my new terrible insurance even those visits are prohibitively expensive right now.

I will be making more money by next month, and would like to start seeking therapy again. However, I've always struggled to find a therapist that actually helps with my trauma.

I have cptsd from a physically and emotionally abusive childhood. I've come to really understand recently that a lot of my anxiety symptoms now are physical. My body will react outside of my control, and often will latch onto thoughts to justify my anxiety.

The thing is, so many therapists I've worked with have worked under cbt, with the idea of challenging your negative thoughts and realizing you have control over them. However, I've been frustrated with this strategy because I literally don't have control over my thoughts, feelings, and my body's reactions. I feel like I get blamed for something I have no ability to control. It doesn't matter how many logical fallacy worksheets I fill out or mental exercises I do, my nervous system reacts no matter what.

One thing that's honestly made a big difference in my life is taking propranolol regularly. Right now it's helping me actually succeed in my customer service job. But it's not helping with everything.

What should I look for exactly when trying to find a therapist who won't default to cbt?