My mother physically abused me alot as a teen after their divorce to retaliate from his abuse on her. One time it got really bad to the point I felt like I wont survive so I ran out the house, borrowed a neighbors phone called him explaining everything and it made him believe he must call the police. Soon after they showed up, nothing was done she excused my wounds and lashes to the police it made her more angry at me so she kicked me out and when she asked him who called police on her, he said it was me. I was 16.

I tried to defend myself but in one year when before she kicked me out and when i asked him to be honest about the police thing they both said they regret having me. From then on she made it her mission to turn anyone against me and those people even wished that my child treats me the way i treated nmother without knowing I was abused and terrified at 16. I felt i couldve trusted my nfather and i was very wrong. Throughout the years i tried to forgive her and respond to her attempts but i gave up 2 years ago, she does hate me.

Now they are now trying to reach me thru email and i dont wanna attend the funeral. I havent seen him in person since I was 18, Im currently 29. He ruined my life it made me make terrible choices and im now trying to reclaim my life and its exhausting having to get up everyday to continue.

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She physically abused me alot as a teen to retaliate from his abuse on her. One time it got really bad to the point I felt like I wont survive so I ran out the house, borrowed a neighbors phone called him explaining everything and it made him believe he must call the police. Soon after they showed up, nothing was done she excused my wounds and lashes to the police it made her more angry at me so she kicked me out and when she asked him who called police on her, he said it was me. I was 16.

I tried to defend myself but in one year when before she kicked me out and when i asked him to be honest about the police thing they both said they regret having me. From then on she made it her mission to turn anyone against me and those people even wished that my child treats me the way i treated nmother without knowing I was abused and terrified at 16. I felt i couldve trusted my nfather and i was very wrong. Throughout the years i tried to forgive her and respond to her attempts but i gave up 2 years ago, she does hate me.

Now they are now trying to reach me thru email and i dont wanna attend the funeral. I havent seen him in person since I was 18, Im currently 29. He ruined my life it made me make terrible choices and im now trying to reclaim my life and its exhausting having to get up everyday to continue.

I was told a few days ago some paperwork I've done was wrong and he won't allow me to do anymore. He's older staff I'm working 4 months at this firm.

He has reported me once before for not knowing the phrases used in the firm and for asking for help too many times saying my brain is like scrambled eggs to understand the paperwork that he had to train me on.

Now he didn't report me and I realised there was no paperwork on the desk for a few days so on the assumption and guard down I had a simple conversation trying to understand what is it I'm working to I learn this information harshly and loudly infront of other staff.

I wanna quit.

When my father was around her, he did everything for me and my sister. When he cheated and left her, I took the role my father had. I spoke up then left cause it was so stressful, my sister is bait now but my father is saying it wasn't that bad when I remembered he had to drop us to school everyday, complained it was an hour away from his job when she abandons ship and runs to work at 6am when her work starts at 8am. I don't understand his need to always protect but admit to my sister how difficult our mother is.

So when I wanted guidance in raising my child, suddenly it's I only have one kid it's not hard literally I'm figuring this out as I go and ill continue to. She was financially there, never maternally.

I have trust issues, but I trusted my family. I've been treated the worst, but I still have a good heart. I try to find people that are human like me with broken pieces and still accept their reflection but attract the worst kind of evil. I had to learn life lessons as I go, because I was always caught in the middle of parents drama. Some people just one parents let them down, my entire family let me down when my mother had to always prove that she's right every single time.

So police showed up and the police said it was my fault that I'm back in the situation and that I love problems. She blamed me for everything said that even tho I have proof of her telling me to sign my kid up to the school near-by her, its my fault for believing my mother would change. Its her place she can do whatever she wants.

After the woman left, she said that she don't know where she went wrong with me, said I hate her then I said you said to me you regret having me and she said if she said that, why did I come back. Blamed me for everything. The police officer said call your baby daddy even tho he's abusive and move back there.

Idk what to call her but she said I was controlling while I lived with her, and moved around things without her consent even though she said make yourself comfortable. Everything is my fault. This is the problem when you have a good heart. Makes me wonder are the good people in jail and the bad ones are out here?

I'll never reach out to anyone of them or their families ever. Not a funeral nothing ever. I need to not be so trustworthy to them. They so wanted my autistic kid, who the police officer said BTW isn't autistic after I had documents to prove as if she's a doctor, to go thru trauma so bad. But I'll stop it. I'll make it my mission in this life to take accountability for what actually is my fault and not project my childhood trauma onto my child like they did to me. The cycle ends with me. My sister is still there, I feel sorry for her but she's an adult, she should move accordingly. Today was my kid's Special Ed day. She missed one session cause she was sick, now two.

Edit: She's mad that I hid proof my kid is autistic she loves to broadcast everything to family that she made hate me, she told the officer no my child isn't autistic I showed documents, oh my mother is right, it's just a speech delay because of the pandemic all the kids were inside. I felt sooooo defeated.

I always use to base every single traumatic event thinking hmmmm it's not as bad as being around my mother who said she regrets having me, abusing me cause I look like my father.

I'll be better, the guardian of my mother failed her miserably, no one in the family acted as if she was ever traumatised when the guardian assaulted her severely.

Hi it just got worse. This morning at 6am she is pounding in the door to wake me up. I got out my phone recorder cause no one is announcing who is it. She is yelling loud to me to get out her house because my special needs kid won't speak to her. My child is mimicking me plus I don't feel safe leaving her alone with her after how physically and verbally abusive she's been to me and how my sister reacted in my previous post.

She doesn't care where my child who has special needs stay. I just left a toxic and abusive relationship she's saying she's gonna call him to come get me. I said I'm speaking to him telling him my beliefs just yesterday evening that my mother might try to take my child from me and I have to put my child's needs first. She was hoping she'd scare me into silence, but again I'm glad I took the steps.

After she said I caused him to attack me and since I speaking to him she need rent for my old room. I have all this recorded including she denying me access to an iron to have my child's clothes ironed for school and her refusing as a grandmother seeing my kid sick to offer advice or help cause she too could get sick. There's a flu going around, not covid.

All this because I didn't wanna stay here with her for the duration of November alone. Yes my father is dying and my sister can help, but I can't stay alone with a woman who has to always prove I'm wrong and she's right. I recorded everything thinking OK, that's it.

Nope! When I open back the door the first time, she took the key for my room that's hanging above the door. It's there because my special needs child who's 4 locks herself in there by turning the lock on her end. She took it. Then she come busting into the room with a storage container I gave her she's bringing it back saying everything in my room is hers and that I need to just walk out with the clothes on my back. Cause she's focused on how people think of her in our neighbourhood.

T. W : I was behind the door, so she bust open the door with me behind the door and push me so I push it back she push again, I take all my might to push the door, pee myself and she pushed it again and then I pushed her. She's saying to the family I cuff her in her eye showing my sister and she's saying there's nothing there telling her, she's next. Then she's off to file a police report. I have all my proof but stopped recording when I was back in my room. Here we go again. There's never any peace. She can't accept her reflection, why should I accept it. My sister said she will help me concerning police. It's now 10, I haven't eaten or drank water my child was suppose to go special Ed today in her school, I had to let her father know what's happening.

Instead of she be the mature one, I always have to be the mature one while she is emotionally unstable and I have to always emotionally be in check. I tried so hard but I did stop I didn't push her again, I just watched her, she watched me and covering her eye like I cuffed her hmmm. I'm so mad at myself. I tried to keep it together. I tried setting boundaries. I tried to be aware. I tried and I'm mad that I can go to jail. If I had known opening the door woulda escalate this I woulda keep it shut. I need help and I'm afraid she might make me lose my child off of this. I was right she was trying to break me off from my child. I was informing my friends and my child's father my suspicions yesterday before so I'm glad that I am continuing to speak up, now idk what to do, her school is up here. My mother doesn't know when to stop.

I fixed the sleeping problem tho, took piriton and left my phone playing loud plane sounds. Now this. I was really trying so fucking hard.