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I'm committing suicide soon, an example of Social Darwinism/Murder
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5mo
This is the best response. I second this... And thank you for saying it - to all of us.
I continue to have this feeling of being alone in a boat with a bunch of other people who are alone in a boat.
Murder is the right damn word for it. If money is speech and corporations are people. Then being poor is a crime. Fuck this country. I was a soldier and I bled. And I don’t know why at all. I am so terribly sorry. Please. Do not kill yourself. I wish I had a better argument than it will hurt me because we are all connected and losing you will weaken us all. And if you’re on this forum then someone hurt you for a long time. And Fuck them forever and ever. Don’t let them win please. I know it hurts. Don’t tell me I don’t know how it hurts. Or what it feels like. I know I don’t know. I don’t have to know. I do know that fuck that person or group of people. Spite is not a good reason to continue existing. But it is a reason. Do not let this place win. You are an embarrassment to the establishment. You all are. Don’t you all see that? Bad people, the abusers, the monsters. the normies like me tell ourselves that we catch all of them. We catch them and we put them in boxes. And they don’t get to roam free and hurt people forever. That there are no crimes that go unpunished, unanswered. That justice is served. That the guilty pay. You are living proof that we live in an unjust, money hungry, delusional society.
You must not die. You must not fade away quietly. You must all band together and be strong. You must be loud. If I have heard it from one of you I have heard it 40 times now. I want to be seen. I see you. I am proud of you. Fight. Live. Fuck them.
Do not go gently into that good night. Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
💯
Check Good RX prescription prices. Sorry you’re having to deal with this expense you shouldn’t have to
Another one to check is Mark Cuban Cost Plus Drugs. I've heard there can be significant price reductions here
Unironically Mark Cuban saved my life. I was at my wit's end financially and couldn't afford my mood stabilizer. Cost Plus Drugs has been a major game changer!!!
i’ll second this. the price reductions are wild
I am not prepared for your name every time I read it
Good RX saved my ass when I was broke, underemployed, and was prescribed medications that would have cost (cumulatively) around $40/day. I ended up spending a total of maybe $50 a month on all of them.
I'm not really allowed to say this, but if there was a way to get the money in not-so-legal ways, and you are ready to die, it might be worth considering. Not that it's easy but still, i don't know what i'm even saying
Sometimes it's ok to take bread if you're starving to death
I told my kid that the "Food Distribution Center" is broken because I can walk in hungry with empty hands and am expected to walk out again in the same condition.
One time the whole family was real sick, penniless, and running out of food. Mom-in-law showed up on the porch with a bit of food and medicine for the kids! I was flabbergasted because I knew she was broke too!
Y'all that elderly lady went into the store, bought what food she could with the little bit of money she had, and five finger discounted medicine for her grandkids. Freaking hero.
I am so sorry. I believe you will find a way through though.
If it were me, I would be tempted to ask for increases on all my credit cards, ask for a raise, run that train til it dies, and then declare bankruptcy.
This. If you any have credit cards (that aren’t maxed out), absolutely run that train until it dies.
You could also move to another country and max out your credit cards before you go. Use credit to pay for the flight and moving fees. You could return in 7 years with a clean slate because in most cases the debt just falls off by then.
Reminds me of this story a little.
And what does OP do after bankruptcy?
Assume you have checked prices in re: Mexico?
I second this, check other countries. I’m in Canada and I order nystatin from Germany. There’s some legit Indian pharmacies that have drugs a fraction of the price and ship to the US.
ETA: here’s one of them. You can search the name on Reddit, you’ll find many posters who order from them.
It’s absolutely outrageous, I’m so so so sorry. Having to worry about this stuff on top of already being ill is awful.
Sending you a big hug.
I couldn't afford medical help and had to find a different approach outside the beloved pharma. The suffering was so bad that I was forced to. That's when I learned profit based health care doesn't care about your health.
You should crosspost this to r/latestagecapitalism
Yes
Have you checked directly with the manufacturer? Sometimes they have programs and they may even just give you the medication and write it off on their taxes. Hospitals do this all the time, you just have to call and tell them you’re too low income to possibly ever afford this and they will a lot of times write it off
I’m sorry you’re going through such a difficult time and it’s not fair that you have to go through this but there’s always a way even if the path is hard and I think you’re strong enough to make it through
My sister has gotten many churches to assist her as they have tax privileges as well. It’s a possibility to hold you over even for several months until you figure it out. I’m talking mega churches they give out appliances, my sister got $7k bc she was homeless and needed rent for a few months
There’s a way to get through this! Just keep scheming. I hope things get better for you
As a fellow American, I also hate our system and how little it cares for us in our day to day lives.
I'm terribly sorry, OP - this isn't your fault, and you deserve better. I personally relate to your situation and think about this all the time. Capitalism is evil, there are no two ways about it.
You deserve better. I'm American and I feel the same way as you right now. I see you.
Yep. I get that. I’m about to do the same thing due to how they treat women’s health. A small infections shouldn’t leave me sick for years without any answers. It’s not worth it
Fuck the US.
Going through perimenopause now. This country is a fucking nightmare....and I have two daughters. I'm mad as hell and can't do anything about it because I'm not musk or bezo...or...or...any other man who has ALL the money.
Yeah they all fucking suck. Musk decided buying Twitter was more important than fucking helping people so that tell me all I need to know about how males lead. Fucking disgusting
In my personal experience I have found that my stress, anger, anxiety and fear have caused me to miss solutions to big problems. I have gone in circles looking for the solution, running into dead ends, being told "no", etc. over and over again. One day I just broke down to my sister about how I was straight f-ed and it was over. She said f-k that and took all the info and found a solution for me. Long story short, she was able to SEE what I could not because she wasn't so stressed and she was helping someone else. The point of me saying all this is that if there is someone you trust, ask for help. If not that, see if you can get a medical advocate. If that is also inaccessible, I'm damned good at finding solutions for problems that aren't mine. Looks like there are a bunch of others here who feel the same way. Reach out. The solution may just be hidden from you at this awful moment.
Fuck. I realize that I gave advice when it appears what you need is a listening ear and acknowledgment. Sometimes I'm dumb. Your right dude. Fuck this system and fuck those that support this dystopian nightmare. They are trash. It's absolutely sick what's being done to you. In the end, those that are truly sick are them. We have been victimized by their greed and psychopathy. I know I'm just a faceless internet stranger, but I want you to get your medicine, live and get the opportunity to heal. I hope you can find a moment of quiet peace today. You deserve one.
I love you're user name...kinda how I have to roll now, lol
Thanks! It is also how I roll. Lol
i am so sorry. i relate to so much of what you’re feeling and i hate that you’re dealing with that
U r not alone. I’m going to do the same once my dog passes. This is not worth the hellish struggle (for me). I’m sorry you are quite literally forced to do this. It’s not your fault. Everyone and everything failed you.
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I feel you. I hate this capitalist system of how the most privilege survive. It's really unfair how those of us got unlucky in life to be born to abusive parents then we suffer finding help, yet alone affordability. I'm about to give up soon too. It's not worth living on this planet anymore.
You could always keep putting it off for another day. Exist out of spite and piss off as many as you can. Don't go out if you don't have to, but I get how you feel. It is ridiculous and you deserve better. I know you are tired, but I hope you can keep putting it off.
Move to Europe. Get on a trawler or a cargo ship and move to Europe. We got universal healthcare! I'm trying to be funny because I'm worried about you and also horrified at how awful things are in America. 1200 dollars? That would buy me a decent mid-2000s car. Can't you move to Canada or something? Europe is pretty crap, but at least we have universal healthcare and you get your prescriptions filled for a very small fraction of that value. Honestly, I am poor and I have access to all the medication I need to survive, including vitamins and other things. At this point I don't even know if getting a way to move to Europe or something wouldn't be a plan for you. If you have friends or someone anywhere where if you're not rich you just kaput, I'd consider moving very seriously.
Hey I can appreciate that this was a genuien response. I would like to point out that internationally moving is very expensive and has many legal hurdles with one of the main ones being that one generally has to have a qualifying job for immigrating and has to have sponsorship from a company or a people.
Moving to a blue state would be very difficult and expensive as well but would be far more realistic than an international move that would be cost prohibitive and likely wouldn’t qualify for.
I think this is true. At the end of the day no one is really fighting for my life. No one knows what to do or how to be a true advocate. Which gets tricky when I am depressed and extra vulnerable.
1200 is the amount for rent in some places. I dont know anyone who can afford 1200 for medicine.
I wonder if you went in-patient, explained the situation, what they could do.
We are ultimately alone in the things closest to us, Rilke said. And still some moments in life are good and than maybe some moments where you are glad you didnt give up. That you got the chance to see
Not because anyone really chose that for you
You chose it yourself.
If you're determined to go, please don't let your loss go unnoticed. For the sake of all the other people in similar circumstances, all the legislators and administrators, shareholders and etc. ought to know just how accountable they are for the impossible conditions to which they continue to abandon the most vulnerable.
This is how you get someone brutalised by cops accidentally, at least tell them to time delay stuff.
I think we must have different ideas of how OP would handle this but I understand your point and trust that OP will take your warning to heart.
Check prices elsewhere another OP Canada I think, there's vendors online?
But yeah seriously do not be telling people to signpost anything.
You will get them hurt.
I hope OP realises there are cheap ways to get medication, and they can crowdfund, and such, to get time to figure stuff out. But I won't be selling op no false stories.
I’m sorry that you feel this way. Your perspective is valid and I hope that you will live long enough to teach your experience to others. Please don’t hurt yourself. You don’t deserve it. I know that things are difficult and life isn’t fair, but there is always a way to make things ever.
Affordablerxmeds
You can buy cheaper medicines online or in Canada or Mexico.
I understand your anger, and I understand you're exhausted of looking for alternatives when you shouldn't have to. I'm sorry.
If you'd send me your info (what's the condition, what is the med, what state you live in, what programs you have tried) I can search around an option for you... if I find one and you'd like me to, I can even sign up for you.
I'm sorry. Assuming you're serious, I just can't read something like this and not do everything in my power to help you... please reach out to me.
Thank you.
If you decide to put more effort into trying to live before you hurt yourself, try looking up local state funded non-profits that work in community mental health. Those types are who helped me when I was at my worst. They stuck by me when I attempted killing myself multiple times then helped me climb out of my abyss. They helped with meds too. And I think I’m doing really well now. It took hard work and several years but I’m happy.
I hope you keep trying too.
Why don’t you try Psychadelic mushrooms? They are immensely helpful with depression and are nature’s medicine. No capitalism involved if you grow your own
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Chances are they are under MA , all insurances are shit though .
Don’t do it. Please don’t do it. There’s so much more to live for
Don’t do it! Please get yourself overseas anywhere fast
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Bruh why you have to commit suicide? You thought about just not taking the medicine?
brother thats basically just committing suicide but slower and more painful. they need it to LIVE
This post reads like you’re encouraging suicide btw. Fucked up.
I dunno. Whole thing seems fishy to me. There’s alternative meds/pathways for everything. Before everyone starts calling me anti-science and piling on, dude is talking about killing himself. Maybe use the internet as a way to find another solution rather than a megaphone to announce that you’re giving up.
yeah, and not taking meds the you need to survive is not a solution dumbass. your fuckwad unhelpful ass response is actually worse than telling someone to kill themselves because you're treating their problems like they arent serious. i'm obviously not encouraging suicide just pointing out that you're being shitty to someone in a miserably difficult situation. go take your middle school ass bait somewhere else
I know plenty of people who haven’t taken medical treatment for life threatening diseases, been given months to live, and gone into full remissions. Just saying consider alternatives before you kill yourself. You don’t know the situation you are just assuming he’s 100% correct without further inquiry. Hysterical people often hyperbolize.
is there any possibility you could ask for them to prescribe something that’ll be similar but less expensive. maybe an older gen medicine?
I see and hear you. I am so sorry. If you can pursue “illegal” measures safely, do so.
I’ve been reading up on medical refugees from America. Pretty wild what our country is coming to.
Meds (and rents) are cheap in Mexico. What is it? I’ll check it here.
I was where you are 3 years ago. There were animals that needed me, I’m so glad I got to meet them. Consider that ❤️
I have some advice for the money issue:
Some states have much better help than others. In NY you’re more likely to get help. I’ve worked in the disability/therapy field in NY before and it’s no joke. Of course it’s still no where near perfect (in fact it sucks in some aspects), but it’s better than other states. I was working giving a type of therapy to people and the service was free to people (with a state recognized diagnosis and a shit ton of paper work).
My point is u might want to try a super left leaning state (assuming ur not already in one). This is of course is only if u have the funds to try and move, that’s a massive thing and would require a lot of resources. But if you can I would suggest that. Many towns here in NY have great resources for necessities. I think I’ve even seen programs that help with doing medical paperwork just recently.
Heres maybe a reason to keep going:
It’s not fair, you are totally right. But if you can hold out for a bit longer, please do. Be outspoken about this experience, (I know that is genuinely hard to do) try to tell people this. Post even more about it on different platforms, or if u can tell ur town about this, look for protests that you could go to, start petitions. You aren’t obligated to protest, but you deserve more, and people in power don’t listen unless there’s a lot of people saying the same thing.
I had a lot of my services in high school years ripped from my hands by the school. I wanted to die, like attempting and shit. I nearly didn’t graduate high school. Now I’m studying this with sociology among some other social sciences (quick side note: the state is paying for my college tuition through a program that gives tuition to those with low income and disabilities. I live in a very left leaning state. I think it’s a good example of the help out there in different states.) I’ve written papers on my experiences, and more people are listening. I’m looking into law as well. So if people don’t listen then they gotta pay up lol.
Sometimes people are literally just unaware of our experiences. I remember the first time I heard people had to pay for insulin, then hearing the price, I couldn’t even imagine it was that way. I learned this through a class presentation project from the sibling of a diabetic.
So if u can, live for us. We need more voices to be heard.
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