Basically when I've been burning the candle at both ends and just need a day (or a few hours) off, I can't relax without feeling like a waste of space, and the closest thing I can do is end up scrolling on my phone but that doesn't help it just distracts me, I don't feel better afterwards. I'm not asking for suggestions of what to do to relax but I don't know how to figure it out for myself, self esteem issues and all that crap means I only feel of value when I'm providing for someone else or achieving something that is worth while, it's all based on external validation. When I try to just chill out at home it's just very uncomfortable and I always end up doing something, but nothing worthwhile, just arsing around and wasting the time I guess.
I know the feeling I'm chasing, it's from back in the day (as it where) before me and my (now ex) wife had kids and before phones were what they are now and time could just be passed doing nothing together, bit of chatting, watch shite on tv stuff like that. I'm just not sure how to spend time alone without doing something, grabbing my phone, or feeling like a waste of space.
Sorry for the rant I'm sure it won't mean a lot to anyone, just throwing it out there as it helps get those thoughts out my head
Yer once it's on its not so bad, it's finding something that keeps me gripped though, otherwise I just end up scrolling through the film choices looking for something, got rid of a lot of subscription services though which has lessened the scrolling but also lessened the availability haha. I find too much choice isn't good for me
Can't stop doing something, exhausted, can't sleep and generally can't be arsed
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