Oh my god how you guys did it, I need to quit this shit that is killing me and I can’t, I’m 38, I was a party girl since 18,my parents got divorced and dad left it was freedom all at one, and is incredible how I ever even attended to do any drugs, they didn’t call my attention, and at this age I got caught up into this; I don’t know how I’m still alive I’ve smoking since June last year non stopping I did it before but I didn’t need it or miss it but I can count the day I haven’t smoke since June 2 the day he put his ass on a plane, and left me in,I’ve with this more that with him, until today my 4th day awake in a road completely away not even a nap, I can tolerate not having it I get angry,sad, depressed and I cried like someone died, when is out of my system, I can’t move I’m so tired that I need to be able to function, as son así hit it im alive, and when I see is finishing Im sad, im in the Dominican Republic, and here if people find out I would be burn on the torch, I though I had a friend and I seek for help cause I know I won’t make it alone and she just cut me of.
I wish I could go back in time and be stronger and said no, im a pleaser and I didn’t wanted to disappointed him, and he only needed a drug partner the left and I in ruin, I was pretty, now I have black spots everywhere from the Brillo it breaks and oh lord im a monster now, I don’t know why but it’s crazy how even inside of my add it goes, I lost it all, spent in 2 years 20, 000 us, my business is bankrupt, I owe my life, dream in debts, lost my Jeep, im trash now, I do anything to get it, haven’t go sexual cause I’m smart always been a hard working woman, but I’m not surprised it happens, I have pawn my phone, my iPad, sell merchandise to clients that I don’t have but because is to be shipped they don’t know and by the time is time form them to receive I either get the product or make and excuse and return the money, I can believe I turn into this, the worse I know and I’m smoking now at the same time, my body is going o collapse I do 3grams daily, sometimes 5 according to my ex what we have here is low quality. 33 dollars plus tips to the delivery and the delivery fee, im shaking, blurry vision, haven’t pee since I can’t remember I’m tired but I resist sleeping and smoke big to stay awake, I’ve been praying god for a miracle, I WANT TO QUIT AND I CANT, I have to leave town o be away, cause the even gave me credit cause I’m the best client, now even without money I can smoke deliver to my door, im alone; tried to kill myself twice to end this, we don’t have free rehab and I call the only pay attention until I said I don’t have the money but I beg you to help me, I destroyed my life, I have a college degree, a ganasen center, I had a good life, now I don’t want to shower and I was a showerholic, rehab is 900 monthly, I can’t afford it, I could pay 33 a day but if I’m there how I make it, I hate this, I miss my life and even knowing why I can’t stop. Can you guys be my friends, probably when this reality hit pass I would say fuck who cares but I’m dying slowly, help me please,
My other special person got sick of me, he replaced me like rou replacer sucks when they are broken. BUT CRACK NEVER FAILS, HE, STAB ME,, HE USES ME, HE SAID IM GOOD IS GONNA BE OK, I WLL ALWAYS BE HERE AND MAKE YOU BETTER, BUT HE LAUGHED AT ME CAUSE I NEW IT WAS TRUE AND II WAS HOPPING HE WILL STAY.. BUT ITS MY FAULT CAUSE I WAS HOPING IT WOULD BECOME THE TRUTH.
I do, I don’t get shit done but my brain is runnng a marathon, well I painted a room today, but I started 6 am and ended3 am next day and is not completed, I wish someone hold my hand and take m3 out of this misery but I’m more lonely than the number 1
Just remember you don't need friends
nsfwquitcrack