I have to drink so much to get drunk. I think about drinking throughout the day. If I don’t get a drink I’m Irritable.. the little bit of alcohol I get calms my nerves. I drink every day. I black out every day. I often throw up. I can’t afford to go through treatment. I just bought a new case 12 pack of mikes hard lasts me a day and a half. Idk what is wrong with me. My mom thinks I have an issue and I agree with her… any advice??? I’m a grad student I can’t risk my educational career
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Hey friend.
As others have said, for me the alcoholic label is complicated and not always helpful. It's complicated and there's so much cultural and social and familial baggage wrapped up in the definition.
For me—when I frame it like that—I'm an alcoholic when I regret drinking too much the day after. But I'm never an alcoholic when I'm cracking a beer at 2pm or bargaining with myself to not drink at the party unless there's something really good, but then only two drinks.
I just had to ask myself, am I comfortable with the amount I'm drinking, and am I comfortable with the way my brain tricks itself into letting me drink more than I want to when the day begins? And the answer has mostly been No. No, I'm not.
As a former daily drinker, but not yet fully sober person, I just try every day not to drink. Sometimes the lizard brain wins and I have beer while I'm making dinner, sometimes it loses and I manage a week or more without drinking.
Regardless, a far cry better than the daily half bottle of wine I was.
IWNDWYT :)