If I don’t stay sober today that hopeless suicidal jingle starts up. At times it’s hard to differentiate the negative from my positive self talk. Why do they sound the same more often than not?
I have to fill my brain with what I read from the literature or what I soak up at a meeting. Most days I find myself thinking about all these terms and sayings. Stopping to pray or check up on a fellow.
I'm on day 6 without a drink. I'm staying sober so my friends don't have to get THOSE kind of texts from me (you know the ones). I'm staying sober because I want to see where all of this goes and how my life improves. I'm staying sober because I want to look better, lose the puffiness, lose some weight, have brighter skin, vanity can be a big motivation and I'm ok with that.