I took humanities after 10th standard. I wanted to be a fashion designer but my father was completely against it. Somehow my mother convinced him to give me a chance but he always found a way to complain. I had to give up in middle and persue graduation ( bachelor of arts). I completed it in 2021. Since then I've been preparing for government exams (not my choice). I am 25 years old. Lately I've been having these thoughts....I wish to die...I don't want to or have any tendency to harm myself...I just want something to happen to me whether it be an accident or just heart attack. I have no job. I have no credit. I'm frustrated. I have no options. Also I don't have anybody to talk to. It feels like am a burden on the people I love. I am living with my aunt( father's sister). My brothers and sisters are all doing professional degrees. I feel so out of place.