I used to work fast food & retail jobs in my early teens & was super extroverted could start a conversation with anyone,didn’t overthink everything.

once covid happened + losing relationships with my bestfriends & my gf after graduation + becoming super distant with my family + grieving my childhood + all the bad things that have happened in the past recent years in this world , I’ve become this introverted,shy,awkward person & always would say I “hate” ppl

Becoming this person made me avoid jobs that involved human interaction I was scared of humans basically lol. I got introduced to temp agencies & warehouse work & fell in love “temporarily” lol I liked seeing & being involved with the behind the scenes from big companies I loved, + the money was good, it was easy work you didn’t have to do any math (math makes me nervous even though I’m pretty good at handling cash I second guess myself), & barely had to deal with ppl & when I did they usually are cool people.

Recently I’ve been wanting to get back into working retail one because it will benefit me by pushing me out my comfort zone & benefit me in the future when I’m running my own business. Two I’ve been wanting to get out more & meet new people. The thing is I’ve been over thinking it so much.

I got a interview at journeys which I’m excited about because one they have good benefits, two I LOVE shoes & clothes, three I’m actually allowed to be a girl now & get my nails/lashes/hair done & wear what I want to work, four they pay weekly & I’m trying to get a car.

I try to tell myself to just focus on the things I love about the job & remind myself the reason why I want to work here & not worry about what anyone thinks of me while I’m working

I know I’ll do fine but I keep psyching myself out & thinking maybe I shouldn’t go & keep practicing how I’d talk to customers when they come in😭.

Any tips for someone like me? Any ideas of small talk I could say to customers coming in. I want to get back to the old me 🥲 If you read this & give advice ily