admittedly it was a good long while since I last cried or teared up at a song, but the song In Between by Linkin Park popped up on my Spotify and the song was beautiful and the lyrics, holy hell

"between my pride and my promise

between my lies and how the truth gets in the way

the things I want to say to you get lost before they come

the only thing that's worse than one is none

the only thing that's worse than one is none"