I’ve tried for my entire life to be nice to people and be polite. I help people even when they don’t know it. I pick up trash even if no one sees. I am pleasant to be around even when I want to die. Stuff like that.
I keep trying and trying to function in life and make a go of it, but I always fail. I’m basically all alone. I see people that are horrible, that are doing great at life. People that joke about rape and racism driving around in expensive vehicles.
How do I keep positive and not let hate get the better of me?
I would say just keep the focus on yourself.
The world is always going to be unfair but doesn't stop it from turning.
My POS brother live in Florida has a beautiful house new cars the whole nines whatever he wants he gets.
He is an entitled selfish prick. When my mother had a mental breakdown I stood behind to take care of her and paid all of her bills for years.
He immediately left the house and Commented "I got out just in time".
I can get mad and stay mad. I have a lot to be mad about lol
Especially now that my mom's down in Florida helping my brother with her kids and I'm struggling raising my kid with zero help. Not one day off since he's been born.
BUT! I have a healthy baby who adores both his parents, I'm in a loving relationship, even though I live in a one bedroom apartment we still have a roof over ahead our heads, food in the fridge among other things.
So why would I continue to hurt myself with the unfairness?
It's not going to change the situation.
I went no contact with my family and still detoxing them but the anger subsided quite a bit once I just stop focusing on them and focusing on in the next steps in my life are.
I eliminated my triggers and my stressors to finally heal.
Don't get me wrong I trip up every once in awhile but it's not a daily occurrence like it used to be.
Make goals for yourself and put all your energy into that along with hobbies that make you happy. Take care of your health and fuck everyone else bullshit.