I was on adderall XR for a year and a half 6 years ago. It changed my life, helped my ADHD and executive dysfunction and made me feel normal. Then several months into it, I went through a really rough patch. I was a mess and ended up abusing the meds after several months of being on them. I ended up stopping them on my own and telling my doctor what happened. I wouldn't ever do this again as I've grown and changed so much from that time. I just miss the meds and how they helped me function (at the regular dose) and feel like a normal person. It's been extremely hard dealing with my ADHD lately, I can't even drive due to it. But I know due to that past misuse I will probably never be able to get them again. Just bummed about that and full of regret.