The last 2,5 years I think I have made more attempts to quit then the 10 years (since I started) before that. I quit cold turkey when my ex broke up with me, and lasted 9 months! Ever since I never made it past one month. The last time I quit I tried nicotine patches and lasted 3 weeks. I think I decided to stop using them too soon.
Anyway, after most of these attemps somehting just switched in my mind and at one point I had just made the decicion to buy a new pack on my way home and start again...
Friday I came back home from a 5 month trip and catched a cold on the plane. I continued to smoke the first days till it got too bad. I still had one nicotine patch lying around so used that. I didn't smoke in 24 hours now, and been fine most of the time (though not being able to smoke because of throth infection does help).
I feel like this patch is starting to wear off, and sometimes get a hint of panic when I think of never smoking again. But at the same time I'm remembering I had so many great nights out when I didn't smoke those 9 months.
I guess I'm gonna buy some new patches and gum soon, and just use it longer as I feel I need it this time!
All I could think is "wow, that infrastructure is amazing"
Maybe the best driver ever!
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