What genuinely keeps you guys going, I feel like with my mental health being severely fucked up just staying stable is very very difficult and the fact ive been pretty much isolated for 4 years since leaving the military is heavily taking its toll, I still have dysphoria albeit not as bad I can't find a job due to being In a smaller city and getting rejected from 20 places for unlisted reasons. Maybe getting ffs was a mistake and I should have gotten a car but the only thing I could think about is being able to not hate myself and I thought I'd be able to get a job easily even if it's a minimum wage within the city as long as I could bear socially interacting with people without shame, but i can't work manual labor due to my legs not working that well anymore and every service job has rejected me. I genuinely don't know what to do because I've only been able to interact with people again after getting ffs so I think it was correct but now I'm struggling with employment surviving off disability with no one I can really trust who can help me.

It feels like the walls are closing in with this election cycle and it will really become the bad end but I don't want that to happen as I finally want to live for the first time in my life. I'm glad I found this forum where atleast it feels like you guys are kindred spirits I guess so maybe someone might be able to offer advice. Money isn't an immediate danger and I have savings but not enough and no car and the city I'm at is kinda remote (no uber/lyft) and a general plan of action for if/when I get a job. But I still feel stuck as no where else is hiring in my area.

Anyway so any coping mechanisms? Or how did you manage to get friends irl that you can trust and won't hurt you. My heart isn't going to take getting hurt to many times more.