I'm a little worried and wanted to check here to see. I struggle with social isolation and after a really stressful phone conversation with abusive parents, I ended up going to a festival alone that I had been planning to go to and got there early. Basically I was so anxious that I struggled to even notice basic social cues (something I realized later) and to see that I was early and that they weren't letting people in yet.

Anyway I waltzed up to the front gate and stood there awkwardly waiting for my ticket to be taken. The lady there was really confused as to why I was just awkwardly standing there and I just said "I've got a ticket." I was really dissociated and I think she thought I was being smart or something and she escorted me out while telling me they weren't open yet and kind of treating me like I was a crazy person.

In retrospect I think I had been stressed and socially isolated and only really exposed to my parents who are very strange socially and who basically live like hermits. I get that the above scenario is probably not the end of the world but it was so embarrassing to feel like I wasn't in control and was just wandering around awkwardly without realizing what I was doing or how stressed I was.

Later when I got home I realized how off I had been. Does anyone have any advice and is confusion normal for social isolation/complex PTSD? Thanks

Because I had a meltdown because memories of sexual abuse coming up and feelings of betrayal. Now I live in terror that any awkwardness, social weirdness or anxiety will get me arrested or bakeracted. I also currently live with my parents. Any advice would be very appreciated.