Hello, I need this subs advice. I just recently got out of a three-year relationship. It lasted most of the time I was in high school and ended shortly after I got out. I know the time after high school for a lot of people is a lonely period with friends going all over the country to attend college, and partners splitting isn’t too out of the ordinary, but something about this feels different. I mean, I’ve been alone in life before, but never like this. All I really do is work now to save up for school. I spend my whole day taking people's orders and talking to others, but the whole time I’m around people, conversing and socializing, it only ever feels like I’m talking to myself, like my thoughts are the only thing keeping me company with this. I’ve noticed a lot of insecurities I dealt with when I was younger returning. I almost feel like a shell of my former self when I’m in a new environment where, as I once was brash, almost in a way, I find myself in a very introverted mindset. Most places I go, I feel uncomfortable and unwelcome. I felt like this was due to my appearance, so I chopped my hair, which I had for almost 2 years, and changed my style to fit in more I always make jokes about being afraid of women, but as I’ve become more closed off, it doesn’t feel too much like a joke anymore. I really just don’t know what to do. I write this lying in bed, thinking about the past and what’s wrong with me now, knowing I have to get ready for work in about three hours. Any advice is welcome, and I thank you for taking the time to read this.