This is going to be the lamest post ever but I don’t care.

I’m 25, I’ve never been in a relationship, I’ve never had sex, I’ve never kissed a girl.

To put it simply, women just aren’t interested in me. And it’s my fault. I’m overweight, I’m shy, I don’t put myself out there, I don’t approach, I don’t try. All of these things are within my control.

I’m trying desperately to change these things but it’s going to take so long and I don’t want to wait any more. I want to love somebody, I want somebody to love me. I want to kiss and hug and cuddle with someone, and just be a happy cutesy couple. I’m friends with a bunch of couples and I feel like shit whenever we hang out and everyone gets to go home with their partner except me.

Realistically my dating life won’t start until I’m 26. At that point I’ll still have zero experience. It’ll be a dealbreaker for so many women that I’ve never had a girlfriend before. Even if I can get my foot in the door, they’ll leave as soon as that comes to light. I’m just constantly worried about it, it’s on my mind 24/7.

I just wish I could surprise these feelings whenever they come up, but it’s hard to do that every single day.

I want a girlfriend, I want a partner, I want love.