I’ve noticed that my obsessive compulsive disorder and schizoaffective diagnosis sort of work together. My delusions start out as obsessions then gradually get worse becoming an overvalued idea, then eventually more bizarre and a full on delusion. I’m working on breaking the compulsions that fuel my obsessions and making sure I take my meds every day. I was wondering when exactly a delusion starts for others, does it build up to the delusion?
Do your delusions gradually evolve or did you suddenly start believing?
DelusionsMy delusions started when I got hacked. I thought people were watching me through my Webcam. I thought they were monitoring my network traffic. Recording everything I did, etc. It was about a full year of that, and then I started having voices. They would tell me things like "we hacked you" "we're watching everything you do" "don't go to sleep or we'll k*ll you" stuff like that. And then I started obsessing over it. Until all I could think of were my delusions. I was working 10-12 hours a day in a high stress job. Getting like 2 hours of a sleep a night, if even that. Sometimes I wouldn't sleep at all. Then I went into full blown psychosis. It was like a year build up of paranoia and obsessing over my delusions. It was bad. Then my brother took me to the ER. And they transferred me to a psychward. Luckily they had one there.
I've had it happen both ways. My first delusions at the very beginning crept in slowly during the prodromal phase (people on the street were conspiring against me, my coworkers were working together to get me fired) but then others happened overnight when I had a real psychotic break (suddenly there were sensors in the floors at work tracking my movements and Domino's delivery people were trying to collect my DNA and birds were spies for the CIA, the KGB, and Mossad).
Later delusions were a mix as well, some growing slowly in my mind and others slamming into me one day like a trailer truck.
I thought there was a a drug/sex cult out of collect a sample of my blood to use it in a angel worshipping ritual...
LOL
Sadly I had this thought mid blood draw....then I got pumped full of geodone
I experience both.
My OCD will sometimes turn into full-blown delusions backed up with hallucinations. This is less common, but does happen. My OCD will also feed off my delusions and make them worse. Sometimes I experience something odd and my brain comes up with a really wild theory and that almost instantly becomes my reality. It usually takes a few repeated odd experiences, or a few different things piling up though. I’ve woken up with a brand new delusion (hasn’t happened since I was a kid though), and also had ones that developed over a few weeks.
Almost every single one of my delusions ‘fades’ into OCD though. Which I guess is just the psychosis fading while the OCD that fed on it sticks around.
You have described my thought process entirely. Starts as an idea and then one day it clicks and suddenly is everywhere
Hello 👋,
Hmm 🤔 it tries to distract you. Like a "delusion" i just had is I've cheating, not talking/drinking with someone, not giving someone my ideas and not giving my life to someone held against me.... by not letting my phone charge and not letting sleep rest me... I quoted voices, and then proof of charging issue next to no charging issue same charger from phone battery gui.
This is how I feel with my ADHD. My mind is constantly running with thoughts, which include delusional thoughts, and I get obsessive over thoughts racing in my head and then cling to the delusional ones, get wrapped up in them and get carried away with them. Then my doctors tell me to just stop thinking about things and turn my brain off and I'm like sorry, I just don't think that's how my brain works.
my delusions start out as a obsessive thought and like a snow ball rolling down a hill kinda as it does that it collects people and things adds it to the paranoid delusions i started with. they in waves pscosis is not always active but when it starrts up everything is against me and im always being persicuted by anyone i know or strangers i dont. i think all types of terrifying and intrusive ideas. my first break from it was after covid and slowly i behan to realize how many years id lost to a fake reality that my brain created. its so so scary to go that far away in my head. gangstalking is always the agenda no mstter how it starts up.
Gradually evolve they sneak in quietly and then I’m full blown in it