I need to find out those answers. Even if he leaves he deserves to know. I'm not in a good place. I've never been like this before. Its scary and terrifying. My parents have been alot of help even though I know I've let them down. My husband deserves better than me. He deserves some better than me. I just need to take this one minute at a time. I threw my marriage away and I don't know why. I'm getting dragged and I deserve it but I need to step back. As bad as Im feeling my husband has to be feeling a hundred times worse. I cant even help him.
He is the man I love even if people who are only reading a 5 minute story about my relationship say otherwise. I know i fucked up and that what I did was a massive betrayal but that wont stop me from having a desire to help him
I’ve been that person pleading for help and support in the moment from people who just froze and refused to stand up for me. They aren’t in my life now.