I don't feel that I can be my authentic self in my home anymore, especially while on a journey of self exploration. I need to know how to be able to mask again, because it was so natural before, I didn't think about it, but now I'm struggling to be able to do that. Do I just disassociate 24/7? Not masking is making life hell for me, but I got a small taste of the freedom of not having to hide who I am while discovering all of that. Please help. I'm desperate to go back to how it was before October.
I’m sorry to hear that. Are you able to find a happy medium? That’s why I try to do. I also try to adapt myself depending on who I’m around.
Essentially, a lot of the time I try to be a toned down version of myself. At work most people don’t share my interests so I just ask people about their day/weekend and a lot of people like to talk about themselves so I listen. I love animals and most people do too so that’s easy. I focus on my work mostly and I know everyone sees me as a bit odd but there’s nothing I can do. I don’t have to mask around my husband. I do around family but not to a huge extreme.
I’m not sure my comment is helpful so far so I’m sorry, if you’re comfortable sharing what are you struggling with in particular?