I want to be supportive (I think) but then I also donโt because Iโm so pessimistic at the moment Iโm basically just waiting for him to fail and then will kick myself if I start believing him and in him.
I see others posting on here saying things like they feel so bad, theyโre going to support etc but how? I almost feel like if I show support he will feel โlet offโ and feel itโs easier to continue doing it behind my back.
Another angry part of me wants to treat him like a fckboy. As clearly I missed the memo about the lack of respect in our relationship.
Eg. He likes to kiss me when we are doing intimate stuff so part of me wants to tell him not to kiss me and that he didnโt get to kiss the people on the screen so fk off lol