I came to Germany for my master's (in entrepreneurshop) about two years ago. My wife followed suit after a year. My goal was to explore Europe with my spouse and leave. But my spouse finds it more comfortable to live here than back in our home country India.

The reason I'm depressed is that I don't have a job and I'm currently learning to code at the age of 32 (front end Web dev). And we're burning through our savings living in Berlin.

I actually don't need to do all of this from here. We would actually be better off living in India, studying and then applying for jobs from there. (I have a 1.5 year job seekers visa atm)

Another reason why I'm depressed is that I already make close to 2k USD online through my courses and YouTube.

We could have a lavish life with this income in India. But my wife (who is an expat herself and lived in Kuwait all her life), apparently finds it claustrophobic to live with my parents and she feels pressure and in general doesn't like living in india.

I mean I understand why if we live in a tier 2 city but we live in Bangalore which is very progressive and very entrepreneuial city which is perfect for me (plus my parents are well settled there).

She is not supportive and she wants to now pursue her master's here which is another 2 years.

I don't know what to do.

I want to go back but my wife wants to stay. And I have stopped arguing with her.

I miss all my friends, relatives, and the relaxed life I had back home in Bangalore.

If someone could share your experience

... I don't know.. maybe one day, I'll just fudge it and leave on my own.

Edit: thanks for all your responses. I have more clarity now and I was definitely selfish for thinking this way.