idk how to start this im new to reddit but i just wanna go. My 15 birthday is in 6 days but i dont want it to come and im really debating off-ing myself cuz things keep getting worse and worse. i was gonna do it 3 years ago but bro im such a coward all i do is sh and stupid stuff i wish i could get hit by a car or something. And medication just didn’t help me. I wish i had enough courage to tell my parents whats going on but i don’t even know if they would understand. idk what to do bro i feel so lost
Sometimes what we go through in life makes us dread our coming birthdays because we usually review what we did or achieved in the year that we currently are in. You are a teenager and believe me it's one of the most difficult times to deal with. You have school to worry about, friends who accept you, pleasing your parents personal outlook and many other things. But despite all these pressures I would like to tell you that no matter how hard things may be you can manage to endure and believe me it gets better eventually. Remember this is your life and no one has the keys to unlock it unless you give them permission or access. Never let anyone convince you into thinking you are other than amazing because you are, that you are useless because you are not and that you are a failure because that's a thousands times away from the truth. Never let the words of fools think you are nothing because you are something and what really matters is what you think of yourself. Most importantly dont little to the inner voice that keeps telling you that suicide is the best option because it's not and you my friend deserve to live. What matters the most in this world is the postiveness you occupy your mind with and it's from this that we find real happiness we can hold on to.
Sorry for the late reply and please dont let suicidal thoughts win because we want you alive. The world is better, brighter, warmer and happier with you in it.
Thank you so much honestly this means a lot to me since i didn’t think it would make a difference if i died but l hope things stop going wrong for me so i could stop being anxious and preparing for the worse. I wanna get to my birthday but i don’t know how cuz my thoughts have never been so loud about offing myself. Im so scared of this week starting i might have a panic attack but it feels better to get it off my chest since i don’t have anyone to go. I really appreciate your kind reply
Dont mention it friend am glad I helped out. Its good to get things off your chest because then you get to realize that you are not the only one going through these things. Importantly you get to engage with others who have gone through such experiences and overcome them. When it comes to panic attacks, please cool your heart down and dont overthink of failing to achieve what you intend to. Occupy your mind with benefits of what you will do and let it overcome those negatives. The negatives are never to be focused on and so long as the voice of positivity is the loudest you are good. You are the best you that you can ever be and never let any person make you feel otherwise. You are meant to enjoy and succeed in this life. You will get through this and never listen to that voice within telling you to end yourself because it's wrong and will hinder the best of things yet to be experienced in your life.
your reply made me feel much more calm than when i wrote that, i hope ill stay like this thru the whole week, the future does scare me but maybe it wont always be bad. I hope my life gets better again and i hope i could pull thru
Am happy it did. You life will get better and I pray you are calm throughout the week. The fear of the future is within us all but we should never let it affect the happiness we are supposed to have now. Never let the thoughts of the future bind you like a chain with its tight grip of negativity. Focus on today and not tomorrow because its today's actions that determine our tomorrow.
Remember if you feel bad and out of breath because of anxiety feel free to reach out to anyone you are comfortable with here and am sure they will help out in the best way they can.