Hello Soul Nexians!
I just figured something important out and I hope the mods don't take this down, unless somehow compromised by reddit or something. Who knows which subreddit is equivalent to the nature of this serious inquiry and honest-to-goodness conspiracy theory.
Meaning, yes, we will delve into the genuine conspiracy for a moment, and hopefully not get too political at this time.
Because after busking on the street for over a decade (playing music for tips- perhaps the most karmically and spiritually advanced musical expression imaginable) I have realized something horrific: That before the pandemic I could easily play my instrument and sing my songs without putting out a case or sign for tips even in my college home town in the South USA and easily get 40$ an hour on average, no joke. Most would pass by with a smile, and so many would stop and give me thanks, and apologize that they did not have cash on them.
But now I am twice as good at songwriting, singing, even my instrument after practicing alone during the pandemic but in the same areas I find people just pass me by without a smile, and when they even give to me it is obviously EXTREMELY reluctant, as if they feel it's an "obligation" instead of a "appreciation" and "thank you" for my joyously spiritually lifting free work I am showing to them, giving them high art that breaks the silence and the mundane of the rat race in a place where they don't have to drive to or even pay or be expected to buy alchohol, for instance.
In addition to this, as a male in the US (and as most men I talk to are similar) that it is near impossible to find friendships, especially with women, as my kindness from both sexes is taken as "weirdness" and any desire I have for quality time with any sex and especially physical touch/consensual sex (also a love language) with women is treated with complete contempt.
Whereas before, even as a disabled, bald male I would easily find maybe up to five guy friends and occasionally a short term or even long term relationship with women- knowing that many countries give disabled people prostitutes monthly because sex apparently is a human need, according to science.
But for myself, I was gifted with amazing angelic guides as "voices in my head" that I channel that told me to meditate for three hours a day for three months around the time of the pandemic, which I certainly struggled to do, and only completed a bit over half of that assignment personally. Personally, I am quite gifted creatively and do have an immense burden of fame and responsibility to tackle before I put myself out there, which would mean more meditation is necessary- but here is my point.
It is my conspiracy that since many drugs give us "love"- molly, esctacy, LSD, mushrooms, even THC sometimes- it only goes to logical that they could make a drug that does the opposite- turn off our hearts. Now remember, this is ONLY speculation, a CONSPIRACY and I say this without ANY claim to fact or ultimate reality at all.
But regardless of what happened, it is true that something screwy happened over the pandemic, whatever it was, and we need to turn our hearts back on and start loving each other again, and loving art and appreciating artists- especially ones that don't feel like doing their precious music for PURELY transactional reasons that DEMAND money, effort, a space for people to TRAVEL to and perhaps spend more money there is necessarily the best option for them.
So all I would posit to you is this: please, please start praying and reaching out to your higher self, and ask them to look up the BEST heart chakra meditations and find the PUREST frequencies to clear your mind as you OM and TONE your way to heartfullness bliss as I was able to be led to do.
Because truly, unfortunately, I feel like one of the only people in my town who actually cares legitimately about anyone other than themselves- even though I know there are those around who may be hiding, or trying their best and only need a spark, even of knowledge and a simple prayer to ask the Universe to turn their love center for others, their compassion, their empathy back on.
Because maybe for some that is all you need? Because if it weren't for "the pandemic" you would be alive, full of love, appreciating kindness even from the opposite sex- seeing friendship as a good thing and any complications around fears around sex is something that can be easily communicated easily about, and planned around accordingly.
Thank you, and Jah bless <3