I know my period is about to start, I don't track my period right now but God damn it better start soon because I feel like SHIT. Everything feels wrong, I feel like I'm doing nothing right, I'm anxious about stupid shit, I'm about to run out of the meds that help me with this shit and my dumbass self hasn't called the pharmacy and I KNOW I'm out of refills. I use stupid Dr on demand for my psychiatry and I'll have to wait weeks for an appointment I haven't scheduled yet. Then pay $50 (even though I have good insurance) for a 5 minute session where I say I don't want to change anything, I just want my meds. Or I could switch to an in person psychiatrist that might have a cheaper copay but then I have to make PHONE CALLS and GO SOMEWHERE. The house is a mess, my poor dog hasn't been on a walk in too long, honestly I need to go back to therapy but its HARD and I DONT WANNA. Motherfuckrr god damn fucking Jesus. I need to go to sleep but I'm so fucking angry at myself for everything stupid I've ever done and also angry at myself for not doing enough about everything wrong in my life and the world in general. I KNOW I will feel so much better in a week, but I'm in this shit NOW and I DONT LIKE IT. All I want is a joint and some dole whip but I don't have EITHER. Thank you, goodnight, I'm going to sleep whether my dumb brain likes it or not.
ever heard of PMDD? Pre menstrual dysphoric disorder
UgghhHHHHHH! completely relate. Supposed to be flying out on a trip tomorrow and it's gonna be a fun trip. But packing is dumb. I barely have any cute clothes to pack. And everything feels pointless. I'm not even at the worst of my pms yet either... I'm at the phase where it's about to get worse so I'm like this trip will hopefully be a distraction from that! I better have the willpower to enjoy myself! I'm gonna be so mad if not haha. OP I hope you start soon and start to feel better soon!!! ❤️
I often find myself overthinking and overanalyzing everything, even my dreams, haha, prior to the period. Period comes, and it's like the switch to normal is back, minus the cramps. I can pick up on others' anxiety like clockwork.
The heat was intense today. I am grateful for dresses, but I am bloated and probably look pregnant. Being hard on self. Giving myself grace today for being an imperfect lady who's PMS-ing. Hear me roar.
Yes the dreams!!
I feel this so hard. I’m literally going through the same bullshit. It sucks and makes me wanna end my life because it’s too much. But it will soon be over. I hope your feelings improve ❤️
Absolutely fully can relate…. Being a woman fucking sucks!! ☹️ That being said, without hormonal castration or a full hysterectomy, we’re stuck with this shit until our bodies decide to give up on the idea of pregnancy and menopause hormonally turns us into old men 😤 *end of rant *
Through an insane amount of therapy and working on radical acceptance, I have learned that self-compassion and the philosophy of “good enough” are key to not driving myself off a cliff every month… I know the sheer weight of the anger and self-loathing is debilitating - but there is no way all that is wrong can be tackled by putting the expectation on yourself that you should be on top of everything. This pressure is not in anyway conducive to progress or at all helpful. Give yourself grace (our bodies go through an insanely demanding process every cycle) and embrace doing “good enough” - even if it’s one small thing (eg walking the dog). The rest isn’t going anywhere and you’re not meant to be addressing EVERYTHING ALL THE TIME. ❤️🩹
This is me every month before my period starts. Is this like an actual condition because I get crippling anxiety and lethargy and zero motivation and this overwhelming sense of dread and guilt. Every month.