Found out I was having an early loss or chemical pregnancy Monday, which I knew over the weekend as my tests went from dark to basically nothing after a positive beta.
These past few days have been different, I feel like grief hits me in waves. As I’m not pregnant anymore I wanted to resume my normal activities such as drinking pre workout before a peloton ride, and as I’m drinking it I just start sobbing. Hits me like a ton of bricks.
I know our loss is isn’t as surmountable as others on here, and I’m so sorry to those who have gone through hell and back. But how do you move forward? Thinking about another transfer just gives me all the anxiety, yet I want to be pregnant again so it’s inevitable.
If you’ve made it this far, thank you for reading my word vomit, sometimes this is the only thing that makes me feel better. 🫶