Please pray for me as I’m very discouraged and angry. (This is a long one)

I’ve experienced a lot of hardship in my life, beginning in childhood. I’ve had health problems from the time I was 4 years old. My parents were divorced and I had a verbally/emotionally abusive stepfather. He hated me simply because I was not his child. My mother repeatedly told me my then-stepfather loved me and it was just discipline he enforced. Really it was gaslighting. I became chronically ill at age 21. I had a lot of memory problems which made it difficult for me to go back to college. I was partially paralyzed and had to learn to walk again. I managed to earn a bachelor’s degree, which my stepfather discarded as a waste of time and a foolish decision that only incurred debt. After, I had multiple abusive relationships, including an abusive marriage. A counselor told me that I engaged in abusive relationships because I was told this was normal due to stepfather’s actions. I now feel like I’m being discriminated against in the workplace as I’ve been released from several temporary jobs. My friends are thriving and my mom is comparing me to my friends that have married into “money” or married to spouses with distinguished careers (doctors, lawyers, etc). I’ve had so many medical bills from the time I was 21 and was making minimal income. I’ve been broke for so many years because of this.

I’m not at the social status of my friends. My mom has reiterated this and it’s crushing. I feel like a loser in my family’s eyes

If my friends experienced these hardships, I doubt they would prevail the way I have. However I’m reduced to “not meeting standards.” Please help me get past this stigma. I’ve tried counseling and I felt it hasn’t helped