At this point I'd be glad to kick off an actual conversation about what was done to me, but that's just me...and if I'm being realistic, the more likely outcome would be "how could you make up such terrible lies about me?!" which just twists the knife...
What would your abusers say if they read your posts and comments in this sub?
QuestionThey would never have been on here. I am looking at grace, for self and all involved. I can trace generational trauma for generations. Though never discussed, all through research. I am certainly not excusing extremely bad behavior! I have not always behaved as an adult, the anger still comes out sideways. It is a full time job and I so want this red hot anger to dissipate yesterday. Yes the knife is still sharp, not as lethal though. My T wants to take me to a smash room, you pay to hammer stuff. Throw it around and just let loose. I declined out of fear several months ago. The vitriol that oozed out of my pores was intense. I pushed it down then with a hammer knocked it down some more. 1 year in therapy has taken the edge off and made it easier to see. I know I have let decades go with a weight that had no name. Cptsd is ugly just f..... ugly. I want to put wheels on that weight and not let this anger and lack of esteem stop me. I shall press on and keep telling on the ugly feelings.