this is a little difficult to word, so please bear with me. i was never physically abused or overly neglected as a child, unlike a lot of the people around me. and i started believing that i didn’t have enough trauma to justify my mental illness— that i was just faking it all. whilst i am fully aware that such a mindset is harmful, i can never truly bring myself to believe i’m valid enough, or that i’m even traumatised at all. it’s gotten bad enough to the point i frequently daydream and genuinely hope that i was physically abused, neglected etc etc, and even sought out those wants, despite how inherently twisted that want is.

i understand that this is a relatively common problem, does anyone know how to stop this feeling? any help would be appreciated!