So, I am LDS (please, no hate, I don't agree with a lot of their stuff, especially LGBT), but I was raised Catholic and spent time in Protestant churches as a teen. So, my anxiety regarding human interaction has been crippling since my last nervous breakdown last year. The ladies coming to visit to see how I am? Panic attack. The bishop coming to see if I need anything? Anxiety for DAYS. These are super nice, honestly concerned, non-judgmental people. When I explained my situation, the bishop gave me a blessing, and hopes I would be feeling better soon, and that they would be there for me. I don't know how to deal. I've caught myself missing the Catholic church, and I realized it was simply because no one pays attention to you there. You may get to say hi to the priest on the way out, but no one else will bother you. When I was a kid, I thought it was lonely, and I had no one to go to for support and help, but now? I'm catching myself listening to YouTube videos by Catholic philosophers and wondering if it was really that bad, religion wise. (YES, yes it was). I know a lot of people have trouble with church in general, but can anyone relate to wanting to hide from nice people?
I was raised a catholic. I find myself in times of extreme stress and problems I still say the Catholic prayers and right now I am torn between trying to be good because I want to be with my son again he recently passed away I say at times verses from the Holy Quran too. I don't go to church at all. I am scared now, someday I want to be reunited with my son. He is in Heaven. I am old and in poor health. I am trying not to swear and not get Angry and moody. I am trying super hard to be good. I know I did some bad things when I was younger but I have changed now that I am old I am terrified of other places I fear going to the Devil I am very afraid of him and have a first-hand account of the paranormal. This is the very first time I said this to anyone else.
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