Tell me about the friendships you didn't want to end, but did.
Tell me about it. Ghosting, misunderstandings, significant others, diagnosis, fights, etc.
I have been grappling with the concept of friends leaving. I just thought she'd always be there for me and then she wasn't. My CPTSD was at such a high severity when I needed her. Some days I think it's better that she left me and other times I feel so incredibly hurt and betrayed. These feelings are overwhelming because I'm okay one day and other days I sit here and realize I must have not been a good enough person for her.
The only one I truly wish I could've kept was someone who was too healed for me (younger me back then). She was incredibly self-aware, and great at boundaries. She was so gentle she never made me feel rejected when she set boundaries. She even dated my ex and I was truly happy for them. I've had my fair share of friendships that ended, but most of them were unhealthy for one reason or another. She's the only one that was a good friend from the ones I lost.
There's also my bff in college, who after 6 years vanished and we never heard of her again. That one was... Weird.