Ever since i started my awareness and healing journey i have become more educated about how you ”should not/should” be treated by people. That i deserve respect and healthy love etc.
But all i became was confrontational and angry and more hurt, because i see toxic behaviour everywhere..
Then i noticed there are two approches to hurtfull behaviour
Some people meet toxic people and let them act out and dont take it personal, instead being non-reactive, then continue to be gratefull and aware of the good they share.
Some people attitude is ”this is negativt, ur out the door” from the smallest sign of negative emotion. ( this was me at one point and i fought with everyone in my life, snd became even mire miserable)
What is your approach
I'm struggling with exactly this at the moment too. In my line of work there are a lot of unpleasant people. The family situation is obviously awful. Evenso there are good people in both groups who I've fallen out with because I've been short circuiting to "oh no you fucking don't" for a few years now. Some deserved it. Others were medium-level situations that I went full force on, to the point of no return.
It's so hard but well done for recognising it. I hope you're being kind to yourself in tandem with self reflecting. I'm learning you shouldn't do one without the other.