I’m not looking for a pity party. I’m not looking for anyone to tell me I’ll be okay or anything like that. But here’s a question. When all that’s wrong in your family traces solely back to you and your decisions, how do you cope? How do you deal with being the cause of every problem your family deals with?

Honestly, I want to disappear. I feel like everything and everyone would be so much better without me. I’m not suicidal. I am depressed. But I have no idea what to do anymore. My progress doesn’t seem to matter. I’m doomed to be the root of my family’s struggles because of my CPTSD. 😮‍💨