I don’t know if I’m the only one who does this, but when I’m at my lowest point I become a slut.
When I’m self harming and thinking there’s no point in life, my favourite coping mechanism is getting attention online and sending nudes for the validation. I’m not getting off or anything, I simply want to feel like I’m worth something even if I sexualise and objectify myself. Is it healthy ? Hell no Does it work ? Yes even if it seems weird.
You’re normal. Sexual validation is powerful. The underlying belief is “If I receive validation/appreciation it means I’m loved.” You’re not objectifying yourself. You’re looking for connection and love. I don’t have any suggestions how to help (assuming you’re experiencing distress from what you’re doing) but be kind to yourself. This is a completely normal response to trauma.