First time poster here so apologies if I tagged a wrong flair. Just wondering if anyone has tips to overcome my (ir)rational fear of leaving my home because I'm afraid of being assaulted/harassed etc?
Just for context, I'm still going out for work (it's only 10 mins away) and I'm still going out to have food etc. But, I have began to realise that I've been subconsciously rejecting the idea of leaving my home to a club/party/the mall etc basically places that harm can happen to me. It's really frustrating because I'm extroverted and I love going to these places. Sometimes when I feel well mentally, I do agree to go and have waves of irrational thoughts. I know these thoughts are valid because I have been assaulted in these places before (well, not a shopping mall but basically social spaces).
However, on one hand the hobbies I've developed at home has made me more of a hermit. I'm not complaining because these were hobbies that child-me couldn't participate in because of my abusive parents. But sometimes I feel like I've been hiding behind them because I'm too afraid to be assaulted again.
I think my fear stems from the idea that I don't think I'm strong enough to withstand another kind of trauma happening to me. I'm too weak to endure another form of pain that I have no control over. I wish for a world that I'm able to dance, laugh & go out without worrying being traumatised again. Is that too much to ask for?