Sometimes I can't help but be in disbelief about being "liked" as a person, I feel as if I were meant to be disliked or meant to be a villain. Relationships and friendships are extremely hard to maintain due to the distrust I have for others, and my inability to accept things at face value.
Thank you all for letting me vent a little, this is my first reddit post.
Iāve been thinking a lot lately about this idea of āfalse selvesā ā how we present versions of ourselves that are more likeable, acceptable, reasonable, whatever. Of course thatās something you might learn when younger to survive, the trouble is when youāve been doing it so long you donāt even know itās faking anymore. Or maybe you do know I guess, but you donāt know how not to do it.
Thatās one reason I think relationships can feel āfakeā to me. Itās like I know so well how to be put on a role, itās hard for me to not guess that other people are doing it too. And the thing is, they might be, but thereās a good chance theyāre not. Thatās just my own brain projecting this idea