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I'm really struggling with keeping contact with my parents after moving out
Rant/VentI live a long way from my mother and we used to have issues where she'd send me a big email and I wouldn't reply for ages because it was like I wanted to have time to sit down and write a proper reply, but I never got around to it and then I'd feel guilty and not want to do it because I'd built it up into such a huge thing in my head. Things improved MASSIVELY when she discovered WhatsApp, because she'd just send me random messages and pictures of things, and I'd reply straight away or at least the same day. Much easier and less pressure!
I don't want to just project here bc idk your exact situation, but I can talk about mine... When I moved to another country, like you I never really "wanted to" contact my parents. But they insisted on keeping in frequent touch, scheduling weekly phone calls, which I also disliked... I remember sometimes I would just get on with them and try and talk about myself and they'd tear me down until I was just sitting there crying and couldn't say anything... anyhow as it turns out I "didn't want to" contact my parents because my childhood had given me a whole lot of trauma and once I was away from it my body was trying to keep me away. It wasn't anxiety "about the phone calls" it was anxiety because they made me feel like shit. I hadn't known that "simply not talking to them" was even an option, and allowed them to influence me into coming back home again. Now I'm 30 and live with them 😒 I'm saving to move out. Far away again. This time I'm not sure I'll stay in touch.
I guess the TL;DR suggestion is maybe you're avoiding the calls for a reason... and you really don't have any obligation to be in touch with your parents now that you're an adult. You should contact them if and when you feel the need to. If they're constantly demanding on your time outside of that, that isn't really normal, they could be a bit too overly enmeshed with your life. If you don't feel the contact is really benefitting you, you are allowed to say NO.
I don’t think it’s fair to put this much burden on yourself when it sounds like your mother is the one needing to come to terms with the reality that you’ve moved away. Weekly calls sound reasonable but if it makes you too uncomfortable then maybe you could make it bi-weekly or give her updates by email or something instead?