I am working contract landscaping doing weekly maintenance, and trying to get into hvac or arborist work/millwork. I am losing my mind, I can’t take it. I’m cutting-whipping-blowing the same blades of grass. It feels pointless and like I’m going in circles. I feel like I will feel less trapped if I am working as a journeyman or a technician, but I don’t know. Does the monotony make anyone else suicidal or did landscaping just take one for the team?