Hello everyone. I hope you are all well. Recently, I went for an eye checkup, and all was well other than minor dry eyes. However, I was curious about my prescription. I always knew my eyesight wasn't great, but I was taken aback by just how bad it is. I have -9.75 in one eye and-10.5 in the other. Honestly, I thought I was hovering more around -7/8. Thankfully, this is the first year in a while I haven't needed new glasses so hopefully it stabilises and doesn't get any worse.
My case is likely genetics, inherited from my mother, who also has bad vision. My father's side has much better vision with only mild myopia or none at all. I never really thought about it much when I was younger, and I've never been an outdoors person, always preferring videogames and reading books, and obviously the COVID lockdowns made that worse. I accept that it's possible that being outdoors more may have made no difference at all and it's all down to genetics, but I just can't help but wonder if I could have limited the progression and brought it down somewhat.
I previously wasn't aware that being this severely shortsighted made me more prone to certain eye conditions like glaucoma, myopic macular degeneration, retinal detachment etc. My optician told me that the chances of a retinal detachment are only marginally increased and hospitals are very good at fixing them, but I've really gone down a rabbit hole lately of reading studies and panicking that blindness is an inevitable outcome.
The good news is that there are practically no cases in my family of blindness or even any serious eye conditions. My mother has had no problems so far despite her high prescription, so I understand that there is really no need to assume that I will have any problems, but unfortunately, being autistic tends to make me hyperfixate on things and lately that seems to have been the possibility of going blind. I've been really worried these past few weeks, convinced I'm going to wake up and see the increase in floaters and flashing lights that signal a possible RD. I have quite sensitive eyes and the thought of needing a surgery on them or getting eye injections is utterly terrifying, along with the thought of losing my vision and never seeing anything again.
I'm really just curious to know if there's anybody out there who's also had these thoughts and fears, and if so, how did you get over them or how do you deal with them? I know that y'all are probably tired of these posts as there are loads of them in this sub, but I thought that perhaps reaching out here to others would be a good first step in trying to deal with this anxiety. Thanks in advance for any responses.
Also, don't bother with telling me about end myopia or reduced lens methods or anything like that because I believe all of that is utter nonsense and pseudoscience that doesn't work.