so I have ed for many years, and sometimes it is better sometimes it's worse, I quit porn for good a year ago, which I am so happy about, I had a porn addiction for about 20 years and suddenly I never watch it anymore.

I started pumping a month ago to see if EQ would get better and noticed that as soon as I release pressure erection gets off immediately as I am not aroused at all.

so I started watching videos of me and my wife fucking, which I consider similar to porn to my idea. pumping is much better like that, I get aroused and my dick gets really hard whilst pumping, and even when the pressure goes off my dick stays hard.

so, on the one hand, I get good pumping sessions with our homemade porn, on the other hand, I don't want to watch even our homemade porn as I don't know if It's bad for me.

what do you think should i do?