Bisexual Teens

theres like zero homosexual people where i live its insane
also basically no one interacts with me so im stuck being alone
oh well ill try again next year idk

So I recently started living alone for 2 months and I cook by myself. I can cook some food which is enough but I started to lower my meals. I skip dinner or lunch. I don't really feel hungry but I started considering only having breakfast and a snack. I just dont like eating that much and Don't starve myself. So I'm wondering if this would become an issue?

hi, I'm a girl, and I've been on and off questioning myself since around 2020, I'm trying to find out if I'm just straight or if I'm bi.

I didn't have what i know as a "crush" until the start of 7th grade. All my crushes just seem more like obsession/infatuation to me. My first crush was a on a boy and it only lasted a week, all "crushes" I've had were on boys and I'm not sure If they were even crushes at all because all but one lasted for a week, besides one that was on and off over the span of a year and a half.

I've also dated boys but I don't know if I was actually all that attracted to them? maybe I just loved them like a friend since I've only been friends with very few boys? I also seem to mix up my enjoyment of attention from guys as being attracted to them or having a crush, and I also don't think I was old enough to actually love them yet

From 4th-5th grade to now, I've had what I thought were crushes on girls, but after a while, i thought otherwise and that they were just a really good friend. I'm not sure if I can call my attraction towards women actual attraction because it doesn't feel as strong as my attraction for men, but something that's always tripped me up is when I'm told that if I can imagine myself with a man and women then I must be bi, but people can imagine intrusive thoughts so it's like obviously I can imagine something like being with women If I can imagine messed up things, it confuses me and doesn't help much.

Another thing is that for the past while since I've last questioned myself I've only thought of romantic situations with men, except for a recent friend break up I had where I was very close to this girl who became toxic, we were never romantic towards eachother because she had a boyfriend, but there were instances that were a bit maybe not so platonic where ive thought about her a lot since then. (It might just be my form of grieving our friendship, but I can't tell)

Like this time where we were hugging and she buried her head in my neck and her nose or smth grazed me skin and it made me shiver and like I just melted, don't know if I liked that or if it was just me behind touch starved lol, there was other stuff too but that's the one I think about a lot, we were a physical touch type friendship and she always made jokes about us being lesbians or girlfriends.

There was also this girl I was friends with when I was in 5th/6th grade maybe and we texted everyday, I thought I had a crush on her and I'd be kinda flirty and send her romantic songs and stuff, we'd send hearts and even call eachother nicknames and stuff like love and baby (I think) but I don't know if I acted like this just because I knew she had a crush on me at the time, ik it's kinda cruel but maybe I was just stringing her along to get the romantic attention I don't usually get

Another thing is that I can't tell whether my "attraction" to girls is me actually being attracted or me just wanting to look like them

This one is kinda NSFW >! Sometimes I'll watch like yk those videos and I never look at the guys and they seen rather unappealing, I'm always looking at the girl, but maybe its just because I'm imagining it's me or something.. sorry if that's kinda tmi, I also never watch girl on girl or guy on guy, so 😓!<

There was this other girl that I was close with who I cared about a lot, had nicknames like baby and we'd exchange "I love you"s to eachother (like all the other girls mentioned except for the first) and would text every day, to this day I still think this girl is attractive even if all of these girls were toxic and hurt me

I can imagine myself marrying women and men, I can only usually imagine myself sexually with men but I think I'd be more comfortable with women, I like more feminine men, I've never had a crush on a girl (I don't think) but I have had a crush on guys, i want my first kiss to be a girl even though i don't know if I'm attracted to girls just because girls feel more safe and comfortable, I feel like I'm not bi but I can't tell at all, all signs point towards straight but i always come back to questioning, I just want to hear what this sounds like to others

Sorry for the very long post, I wanted to provide as much information as I could. I just want some pointers and perspective from others😭