Hello there! I [22M] think it would be good to share my stories as someone trying to tackle his health anxiety. Mainly, to bring some peace and let you fellas know that you're not alone in this!
-Back in November '23 I had a big freakout when I discovered a lump in my right femur. Doctor ordered an xray and found an exostosis, wich is literally jut an extra piece of bone. Doesn't hurt, is harmless. He said I probably had it for years but didn't notice it because it's close to the knee and hard to see/feel when sitting down and that there's a lot of people that have one without even noticing. BUT OF COURSE, I THOUGHT OF BONE CANCER. It took me an extra three visits and tests to bring some sort of peace. It all went downhill from there.
-In January '24 I was close to some final exams. I got a dull and moderate ache in my lower right abdomen, along with random gurgling and diarrhea/constipation. I was convinced I had appendicitis and visited the ER. No fever? No nausea? Not even sharp pain when pressing your belly? They did some blood tests, all nice and clear. They sent me home. Two days later I visited my lifelong doctor for a second opinion, who said "Kid, if you had appendicitis, you'll either be in excruciating pain or in a delirium caused by a 40°c (104° F) fever and sepsis. Try to relax about it". He diagnosed me with functional dyspepsia triggered by stress and anxiety. It comes and goes (I have the exact same pain now) every 2 months when facing stressful situations. (OF COURSE I still think I'm gonna die when they start). They usually last to up to 2 weeks.
-After some peaceful weeks trying to relax myself, i got a random dizziness out of the blue in May '24. It was paired with random vision issues (blurry vision and floaters) and chest pain right where the heart is. I thought I was gonna die. My doctor took my BP during a stress episode and it read 180/90, wich makes no sense for a phisically healthy guy in his 20s. He said I was having a panic attack (yay!) and got me into a soft benzo to mellow the symptoms. OF COURSE it took me blood tests, a visit to the ophthalmologist, an EKG, and a Echocardiogram (plus a couple months) to understand that it was indeed anxiety and not some valvulopathy/blood clot/heart attack. JUST NOW (July) I'm no longer suffering from chest pains and my vision and dizziness are slowly getting better (of course, there's some awful days in between when all progress seems to go away). My BP is excellent; 115/70.
- Random neck, head, leg, pelvis, back and arm pains, tingling, numbness: This had me convinced that I had some kind of brain tumor or MS (The Anxiety-Sufferer's conditions by choice). Had them for 3 weeks straight, now they just come and go with bad postures or not drinking enough water, just like it was before. Imaging shows all good but a clear cervical tightness, that probably causes the back-of-the-head pains and the dizziness (going to PT soon!).
-Waking myself up with shortness of breath or thinking that I couldn't breathe: This was one of the reasons that triggered my anxiety attack. There was a moment where I slept just 2 hours in 2 days thinking that I was gonna die in my sleep. It's almost gone by now and I'm currently capable of going back to sleep if it happens.
-Overall grumpy and inactive: Physical symptoms, although not tied to a disease, are very real. When I was suffering from them I was not in the mood for anything. I used to walk 10km (6.2 miles) every day and that came to a halt because of how crappy I was feeling. Saw my only 2 friends almost all days and some months ago I went 3 complete weeks without even texting them. I'm slowly going out more often.
-UNABLE TO USE MY BRAIN! That's how I feel. Picking up my favorite books, studying or working are impossible tasks for me sometimes. Slowly getting back to it.
-Slurred speech/difficulty finding words when worn out or stressed: This had me thinking I was having a stroke. Such a bizarre thing.
-Bad reflexes and coordination: paired with the dizziness and visual issues, it was a shitshow. Getting better; using a racing simulator helped me a lot to regain my confidency.
-Sense of imminent death: This is one of the most brutal things. Full acceptance of the made-up fact that you're going to die instantly or in the short term. It becomes more present when alone/going to sleep. I'm still workikg on this one (as you can see, I'm alive so far).
-Random spasms: Mainly when going to sleep or when sitting down. They freaked me out at first and had them almost daily. Now I rarely have them and they make me laugh a little.
-DODGING THE FACT THAT I HAVE ANXIETY AND LOOKING FOR REASSURANCE IN PHYSICAL HEALTH/EXAMS: I just can't get over the fact that all this crap is caused by something so abstract, so intangible. Going to take the big step forward and try to get some form of therapy.
That's all I can think of. Feel free to ask anything! Thank you all and especially to u/Eirwynzure wich motivated me to do my own post about former and ongoing symptoms.
Remember; this too shall pass.