My husband and I recently had a baby after struggling with infertility for several years. She’s absolutely gorgeous and I love her more than anything in the world. I think I regret getting pregnant though.
It’s almost 4am and I’ve yet to fall asleep. She has colic and nothing I do can calm her. Meanwhile, my husband is in bed snoring away. He says he can’t help me because he works with heavy machinery and needs to wake up early. I can’t get help from my mom because she lives several hours away. I have no other family. My in-laws—despite living a few miles away—haven’t even asked how I’m doing.
I’m a terrible mother and I’m failing my baby. I’m starting to think I should leave her with my mom and end it all. My daughter would be better off without me.
Talk to your doctor OP. You might have postpartum depression. It's okay to ask for help. Please let someone know how your feeling.