Hi, I (M42) finished week one:
There are a lot of critical voices in my head since forever, these have been the strongest forces guiding in my life I believe (outside of outside-forces of course). Trying to do the "detective work" - where do they come from:
I have been lucky, I hardly remember my childhood but I had a loving family growing up, even though I was always a bit misunderstood. I haven't had any one do horrible things to me (like in the example in the book). When i was a child we emigrated so i had an accent for a few years as i leaned a new language but moslty I passed under the radar so there was no need to either strongly support or destroy, so I believe my negative blurts come mostly from myself
I'm not sure how to do more detecting, I had some bad teachers/bad bosses that shot me down but I have a feeling the roots are deeper.
Does anyone have similar experiences, where there's no clear "evil" other than oneself? It's confusing to be both the creator of negativity and the one dispelling it - how can I reach truth like that?