I feel sometimes I'm just ignoring the work. Like I don't want to put in the effort but I have crazy expectations and feel unfair like why is my life difficult. To me it feels like my mind is playing games. I don't know how to make myself discipline. I immediately start feeling discomfort and sorta scared to do things that require actions..for instance applying for jobs. In my head I already tell like ok let me apply but I don't wish that I get an email or phone call for an interview. I just don't understand like I want a job but how come I don't want to at same time. Like what is underlying cause of fear and things like social anxiety that prevent us from doing anything. I get sometimes hyped watching some video about putting in the work. But after a few mins, I'm back to old me.