It seems solutions to change my life are offered up to me but a part of me doesn't want to take them. Could it be that i would prefer to stay miserable and broken? why would i not want to thrive again and feel happiness?
I'm putting it down to fear. And staying in the familiar broken misery is easier for me than taking a risk to be free of it???
any thoughts on how to go about this would be appreciated. deep down i know i want a happy ending but this part of me also wants to keep my stuck.
how do i challenge this part of me that only sees doom, gloom and negativity ?????
I think what I learned along the way is that it wasn’t just one thing that kept me in that mindset.
Change can be difficult. I knew what to be and how to navigate chaos. I had to learn how to be calm in my own skin in order to accept peace.
I had to develop the areas of my life that I had control over. Building those pieces was fulfilling and gave me the chance to enjoy things outside of my misery.
I needed to learn that the world wasn’t going to bite me. And also sometimes it would. I had to learn how to calm my nervous system enough so I wasn’t anxious or reactive. Unless I needed to be.
And I needed to accept that no one was coming to get me unstuck. I really wanted it. I was tired of just finding my own way. I wanted someone to lean on. I found that person when I started to work on myself.
My experience is not yours, but if any of this resonates with you, I see you. It hurts. Getting to the other side takes a ton of work. You made it this far. You have it in you to fight through the doom and gloom. Rooting for you.