so i have been beaten up in childhood. in the past i did not know why i feel these intense emotions, mostly sadness, and feel lonely and sensitive all the time, so i had constant emotional flashbacks. now it has changed from flashbacks happening when i am triggered by something. and the flashbacks come with vivid memories of my mother beating me up. and then i am likee oh that‘s why but it is really hard to deal with them. do you think this change in the nature of flashbacks happened because of therapy? (i have been in therapy for 6 years now…) the symptoms go away easily but now it is constantly being triggered and actually understanding why and it is really tiring, i keep crying when they happen today i even had a panic attack. i would be happy to hear more perspectives about this if you experience/experienced this in your healing journey. big hugs dears! 🫂
TW-flashbacks changing from emotional flashbacks to both emotional and visual
Questioni am 27… gonna be 28 soon. i am sorry you experience this too. it is interesting that i suppressed them this much and now they are here. because i guess it is about suppression. i had a abusive partner for sometime, since then everything i experience is in the conscious level so that might be my retraumatizing event. and i am really tired whenever i think i get better there is more to it. :( do you think having flashbacks like this is a sign that now my brain experiences things consciously so i would be better at dealing them? how did/do you deal with?
I honestly have no answer to this. I don’t deal with it. It overwhelms me since 4 years (I am 31 now)
what helped me through this process of flashbacks is to notice that the small child i was experienced this. so now, i am trying to make connections about why i have these flashbacks after a certain event and remind myself that i am an adult so the experience is seperate from my childhood. and i try to show compassion to that little child. that’s what my therapist told me to do, and it worked for me. i hope this helps, sending hugs 🫶
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How old are you? I never had flashbacks until I was 26. yeah I remembered things but never like intrusive thoughts / flashbacks. And than I started having emotional flashbacks with a retraumatising experience with 27 and since half a year I have visual flashbacks